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We'll start with the Quantum stuff. This past weekend my friend Chris invited me to a resort that his work was paying the bill for him to stay at. It was a large conference, and he could bring a friend for the Friday to Saturday part. So he invited me. It was really fun. I got to eat a really really expensive meal (over $100 per entree). I had the filet mignot, which was exquisite. While I was eating, I was pondering some quantum physics philisophical ideals. For example...the idea of entanglement. Entanglement means that things that seem separate area really connected in some way. Since everything was entangled at the moment of the big bang, everything is still connected. We are literally all one. So I took a cut a peice of my steak and as I went to eat it, I paused with a strange thought. If everything is literally one...am I eating myself right now?

Today I went to the DMV to get my car registration renewed. I had to change the address on it, so of course that requires a visit to my least favorite government department. I mean that. The IRS doesn't bother me so much, because I usually get my tax money back. Anyway, I was smart and brought a book to read while I waited in line. For once though...I only had to wait about five minutes. I'd have to say that was the most painless visit to the DMV ever...with one exception: they didn't renew my registration. I had to get emissions tested. Oh Joy of Joys...

So I drove all over town trying to find the emissions test station I know of. Eventually I found it and drove up. To my surprise, there wasn't much of a wait. I had two cars in front of me. I probably waited about 10 minutes before having my car tested. Again...shock. I thought this was going to be the most painful thing ever. My car tested fine, I paid my money, got my sticker and drove away. I'm not complaining at all.

My last little tidbit of news is fairly important. I had two interviews this week. On Monday I interviewed for the internship that I've been pushing to get for well over two months, and today I interviewed for a real job. I really nailed the Monday interview. I found out that of all the people, my reel is the most impressive. The guy that would hire me thinks I've got the most shining of skills too in that I start projects and actually finish them. Basically it almost sounded as if he wanted to just give me the internship right then. I wont know for a week. He told me that I will find out by the end of the month and would start the first week of February. Cross your fingers.

Today's interview was good, but not as good as Monday's. I don't think anything stands out as being bad in the interview today, but the problem is that nothing stands out at all. I don't think there's anything that made me seem particularly special, but we'll see. As with the previous, I'll know by the end of the month. So again...cross your fingers, but also wish me luck.

Well, I'm hungry, and Tracy and I will be meeting for dinner in the next hour or so. So I shall be off. Talk with ya'll later.

Luv,

Jess

It's been a hell of a two days. I've sat in front of this computer practically non-stop. The only things that pulled me away from it are food, sleep, bathroom/shower, and girlfriend. That being said, it's been worth it. The site looks amazing, and so far so good on functionality. I've seen a few glitches here and there, but I've fixed em as I've gone along. I'd say things are go for launch sometime soon. Again...by the time anyone reads this, the site will be up.

In other news, I did FINALLY get in touch with both places that I've had trouble getting in touch with. I have my internship interview on Monday at 9:00 am. It's going to be rather long. I'm going to do well though. I can just feel it. The other job, however, seems a bit out of my reach. It involves being the head producer of four realty shows. I suppose it's possible, but they did tell me there are a lot of good applicants. So at least I'm not worried about false hopes this time. That's a major plus.

I'm excited about Friday because it means some relax time. I'm visiting my best friend, Chris, at an indoor waterpark. Through his work, he can bring friends to this conference at a resort. So he asked me to come. Of course I will!! I need the happy time and the relax time. It'll be really nice.

I'm pretty tired so I think I'm going to head to bed. It's been a long day, and I will sleep well after all this computer work. Hopefully thoughts of code won't keep me awake again. See ya all later. G'night.

Luv,

Jess

Today has been hell. First off I should backtrack. I applied for an internship with a large company. I've already had a meeting with the head of the department. So he knows I've been persistent and interested. On Monday I got a call from HR to set up a formal interview. I was at work at the time and couldn't respond right away.

The woman called me at noon. I called back about 30 minutes later and got a voicemail. I repeatedly called back until her voicemail changed saying she was out of the office Monday afternoon and Tuesday. Talk about frustrating!! I left a message specifying that I called her back and would call again on Wednesday when she was back in. I left my name, and my number in case she wanted to call me.

Today I call her, and she asked if she could call me back after she pulled my file. That was around noon today. Guess what...it's almost 4:30 and she hasn't called me back. I sit here wondering if I should call again and risk being a pest, or if I should wait it out. Either way...it's driving me crazy.

That's story number 1. Story number 2 is that I applied for a job last week with a realty company doing video production for them.  Tuesday I got a call to discuss the company and the job details. I wasn't available at the time the phone call came, so I've been calling back like mad. I keep calling and getting voicemail. I've left a voicemail every day so far to be persistent. I'm going to continue until I get someone. My guess is that the woman that called me is out of the office too. Arrrrrrrggggg!!!!!! That's all I have to say. I've already screamed and stomped my feet from frustration at home. I don't know how much more of this shit I can take.

~Jess 

It may seem as if I've been neglecting translife for a while, and quite honestly...I'd have to say that's true. I've been pretty solidly focused on some other things right now. For example, job hunting is probably the biggest one. My social life has also taken more of a front seat instead of a back seat. Yeah that's right friends, Jessica has been having fun for a change.

 Honestly...I wish I could be moving faster, and I'm trying. I'm devoting time each week to getting this site updated. By the time you all read this, the new version will be up and running for everyone instead of just me. So um...hey ain't it cool? Doesn't it look and function nicely? I think so. Heck...I'm already using it. Why wouldn't I think it's cool. It only took me about 8 or 9 months to finally find something that would do what I needed. I'm very proud of the changes. I hope you all like them.

On another note, I feel bad. Just about every day something happens that I feel is something I'd love to add to my blog. I just forget about it by the time I get home or to my computer. Or...I am so engrossed in getting something accomplished that I set the blogging aside. I hope that changes with this update. I would love to be writing daily updates instead of monthly ones. For starters, I don't have to write books each time. It'd actually save me time in the long run.

 So with that, the topic of today: As some of you may be aware, I have been on a spiritual journey of late. I've been filling a lot of my work and free time with reading spirituality related books and films. The first major spiritual philosophy I've tackled is the Judeo/Christian/Islam paradigm. I just finished a book called "101 Myths of the Bible" written by Gary Greenberg, and it was one of the most eye opening books I've ever read. I find myself wanting to talk to a lot of people about what I read about, but I hold back because I don't want them to think I am attacking what they believe in.

A part of me has been dealing with my own prejudice towards Christianity. I think my prejudice comes with a good reason, but that doesn't make it good or justified that it's present. I don't want to be prejudice, so I've been fighting it. The reason for my prejudice is simple: the way LGBT people including myself have been treated has not been good. I immediately go on the defensive around people who declare themselves to be of the Christian persuasion. I find myself thinking thoughts like "They're going to attack me for being trans or lesbian. I need to get away from this person or undermine their reasoning." Essentially it's a fight or flight reaction.

My goal right now is to actively address these thoughts as they occur and acknowledge that they are prejudice thoughts. This technique has really helped me open up and be friends with some coworkers that I'd probably back away from normally. So, it's helping.  And since it is, I'll continue to attack these thoughts in the same way as they appear.

Prejudice has been something that I became acutely aware of recently because I discovered one of my close friends was blaming all of her problems on people of a certain skin color. She refused to take any personal responsibility for negative things that happened to her. She was and to my knowledge still is putting the blame solidly on people that are less fortunate than her, namely black people. I called her on her prejudice and blatantly racist attitude, but she wouldn't back down. So unfortunately, I ended the friendship. Perhaps that wasn't the smartest thing to do, but I had hoped it would send a message to her that racism is not something that is welcome or tolerated. I hope for her sake and for the people around her's sake, she opens up and changes.  It's hard to accept that you are being racist or prejudice, and it's even harder to address and try to change. But it's worth the effort.

Anyway, I'll try to post more tomorrow. I have off and have time. So until then...see ya later.

 ~Jess
 

Hey all,

Sorry I haven't posted. It's not that I've been away from TransLife. Actually far from it. I've been focused on the redesign. I've been hesitant to write new entries in this blog system because of the new one that will be live in a week or so. I'm really excited for this major change to the website. We're expanding, and that's a great thing. So for now...this is my brief little update. Watch for the new design in a week or so. It'll be really cool. Until then...see ya.

Jessica