No...I don't have aspirations to take over the country, nor do I want to be a rock opera band from the 70s. I'm running for

homecoming queen. I am so going to win too. I have a bitchin campaign

strategy. I'm not going to reveal my secret until late next week

though. Watch for pictures.

Aside from that, things have been pretty busy around here. Class and

work keep me very occupied. That would explain why I haven't written in

half a month. I even tried to write this earlier today, and I got four

long paragraphs into it. Then, the power flickered due to a lightning

storm, and I had to start over. So I decided to wait a little while

longer. Now you get the full entry instead of the two lines I had

written after the reboot..

I finally got my new computer. It's pretty sexy. Thank you financial

aid. I decided that I should get something that will last me a few

years. So, I now have something that doesn't reboot itself, overheat,

or freeze. The monitor doesn't flicker off. The sound card works. And I

have enough storage space to do video editing now. So, that means I can

finally edit the videos I wanted to do earlier this year. Watch for a

video on electrolysis, an interview with my parents, an interview with

me, a discussion with a nationally certified electrolysis practitioner

and educator, and others. I've been holding the footage for quite some


Some of you are probably wondering why I haven't posted the wedding

pictures yet. Yeah...during the computer upgrade, they accidentally got

deleted. My father is sending me a cd with all the pictures I took on

it. He said he went through and deleted the junk ones. I really hope he

didn't get rid of the ones I wanted to keep. That would really bother

me. I took about 200 pictures at the reception. I even got offered a

job by the photographer there. She really liked my eye apparently. She

offered it to me several times. I wish I wasn't still in school...I may

have taken that offer otherwise. The pictures turned out really cool

though. I'm really proud of them. Hopefully I'll get the disk soon and

you can all see some of them. I'm not going to post all of them, since

that's a lot of pictures and space. I'll just post some of my


Let's life...not much excitement really. I can tell I'm

itching to be done with school. I don't care much for being in school

right now. I still do what I have to and such. I'm going to my classes

and trying to keep up. I just don't really want to be doing the college

thing anymore. Thank god this is my last year. I don't think I could

take school for much longer. I will definitely take a break before even

thinking about grad school. I just want to have one job in which I work

that job 40 hours a week. Then...I may have other stuff...but I'm not

worried about homework or reading 50 textbook pages a night. It'd be

nice just to have less on my plate. Why do I have to get myself

involved so much?

On a happy "Jess is relaxing somewhat" note, I went to see Serenity on

Friday. I made sure to finish Firefly before seeing it. It was a blast.

I did a 7 hour marathon Friday and finished it at the movie. The series

rocked and it's sad that it only made 10 million dollars the first

weekend. People need to see this film. The show was charming and didn't

deserve to be cancelled. Stupid people at Fox....:( It'll be sad if

this film is the end of the show.

I also went shopping on Saturday. I can afford to buy myself some

clothing and such. So I did. Its starting to get cold out again. So I

needed something to keep me a bit warmer. I bought a couple wrap

sweaters. Those are both pretty and warm. I'm happy with that purchase.

I'm also happy with the purchase of my halloween costume. Just'll love it.

Chris is getting me addicted to Smallville. He's become addicted to

buying TV series on DVD. So, when he gets them, I end up watching them.

I don't nearly have as much time to watch them as he does, but I try.I

wanted to see Smallville before, but I never got the chance. I watched

the first episode, and it was pretty cool. So I'll probably be watching

a lot of that too.

Oh yeah, I bought a guitar. It's pretty. I don't know how to play it

yet, but I'm teaching myself. It's slow going, but I like it. When I

learn how to play decent, I'll record some of it for the site. :)

Anyway, I should get to bed. I need sleep to recover from my sinus

cold. See ya soon.



I'm skipping out of school today...YAY!!! It's fun. I'm actually

skipping for a good reason though. My sister gets married tomorrow. I'm

a I kinda have to be here. Plus, I informed my

professor, and even though he's usually a hard ass about stuff, he told

me to go despite it being not an officially santioned absence. Plus I

don't work on Fridays. So it isn't really skipping...but it feels like it.

This morning I got my nails done professionally. My first ever french

manicure...kinda cool. I did my toenails to match my dress. Don't

worry, I'll take pictures. Tomorrow I get my first ever up-do too. That

should be fun and interesting all wrapped into one. I've heard it's

heavy due to all of the bobby pins and it may give me a headache

because of the hair being pulled so much. We'll see I guess. you may have noticed, the site is updated FINALLY. There was

one or two things on the main page that just didnt look quite right

until Yesterday. So I did it then. There are still a few things

missing, but I'll get to them soon. Just a bit of copying and pasting.

I hope you enjoy it. I put a lot of thought into the way it looks now.

I really like it. So I hope you do too.

Here are some of the features that I want to add still:

  1. Give the forum a matching look to the rest of the site

  2. Clickable gender symbols on the banner
  3. News page
  4. login on the main page
  5. video
  6. fix the most karma/most comments script to only include the last two weeks
  7. add working photo galleries for all diary owners
  8. Background color switcher
  9. um....probably something more...not sure

If you think of things, comment and add them.

School is going well so far. My classes are still awesome. It's hard to

keep up with the amount of reading I have, but I'm managing. I gave a

presentation on Thursday that rocked my socks. I didn't expect it to go

as well as it did. I've stayed after almost every day to talk to my

professors. I've enjoyed it a lot.

Because I like my classes so much, I decided to lighten my load a bit.

I dropped two of my four jobs. I am no longer running a commission of

Student Senate. As much as I cared about it, I needed the time for

things that were more important and more focused on my major. I also

dropped the web job I had with housing. I just didn't have enough time

to allocate to it. I'd rather give both jobs to people who can put the

time in that each job deserves. I think it was a really good decision.

Less money, but that's not as much of an issue this year.

Hmmm, well the rehearsal dinner is tonight and I have a few things to

do before then. So I better run. I'll post new pictures of the wedding

this coming week. :) See ya'll lata.



Gaping upwards at the burning sky

through cloudy eyes

I see clearly the comforting light

as blue as my wilting heart

like emerald green flames of my envy

rising towards unseeing heights

disappearing in the depths

pinons of an unknown dance

streaking like tears

dissipating into the river of stars

as fleeting as infatuation...

The aurora of my heart.

Goodbye Sabrina.

Today was a good day. Even though I woke up all stressed out and

lost sleep because of worrying about the Open House, today really just

rocked. I woke up all worried that I wouldn't have everything ready and

that people wouldn't come to the Open House. Plus, I got a call from my

advertising director about forgetting to lock up the studio. After that

call I freaked out because I forgot to tell her we had to put our

banner on a specific side of the building. We would get yelled at.

So...sleep didn't work out so well.

All the worry was for naught though. The Open House went so great. Lots

of people came and applied. The interviews went awesome for the staff

that was hiring. People had fun. I finally felt like things were

getting going. Also, I'm so excited now for how awesome this semester

is going to be with the studio. Now I just got to remember that my

school work is more important...;).

OK, beyond that, I should give a Sabrina update. The reason I sent that

message to her was because she just wasn't communicating. If you've

read my diary, you know that I've had issues with girls just ceasing

all contact with me. So, I wasn't about to let that happen with her.

Turns out she's just been really bad at communicating lately. Maira is

just a friend of hers and she sincerely apologized for freaking me out

and hurting me. I sent a reply back basically stating what my friends

were telling me and that I was hurt more than I was mad. I told her

that the relationship would die if we didn't talk...etc. I was very to

the point..maybe even blunt, but it was necessary. She got the point.

I knew she got the point when she referred to herself as a "worthless

girlfriend". I don't think she's worthless and I told her that. I mean,

the reason I even was upset in the first place was because I cared.

So...I really think things will be better now. I'll keep you posted on

any changes.

Speaking of changes, the final touches of the new design are underway.

It's slower going now that the school year started up, but I'll have it

for you all soon. Sorry to keep you all waiting on it. Just a little

longer. Anyway, sleep time for me. G'night.



This is all I'm going to post:

So, It’s been a week since we last talked. I’ve sent you messages on RvB. I’ve sent you a couple e-mails that I put a lot of time and emotion into…music, pictures, poetry…I’ve heard nothing back. Not a thing. You seem to be willing to put time into writing journal entries and photoshopping images, but you wont take the time to even say hello to someone you supposedly love.

Sabrina, I’m sick of being the sole supporter of this relationship. I keep sending you hellos and e-mails and get nothing back. A relationship isn’t supposed to be one sided like this. If you are unwilling to give the time to communicate with me even in small amounts, then I can’t be in this relationship. In fact, if that’s the case…we have no relationship.

On top of that, I signed on the other day and saw that picture of you with “your girlfriend Maira” in your profile. I don’t know what the hell is going on…but needless to say I very much have every right to be pissed and hurt. Love isn’t just a word hun, it’s an oath. And it shouldn’t be taken as lightly as you seem to.

So what’s it going to be Sabrina?

I sent that about ten minutes ago. I was planning on waiting, but

several friends advised me to not wait. So I didn't. We'll see what