Posted on October 5th 2005, 6:36 am
No...I don't have aspirations to take over the country, nor do I want to be a rock opera band from the 70s. I'm running for
homecoming queen. I am so going to win too. I have a bitchin campaign
strategy. I'm not going to reveal my secret until late next week
though. Watch for pictures.
Aside from that, things have been pretty busy around here. Class and
work keep me very occupied. That would explain why I haven't written in
half a month. I even tried to write this earlier today, and I got four
long paragraphs into it. Then, the power flickered due to a lightning
storm, and I had to start over. So I decided to wait a little while
longer. Now you get the full entry instead of the two lines I had
written after the reboot..
I finally got my new computer. It's pretty sexy. Thank you financial
aid. I decided that I should get something that will last me a few
years. So, I now have something that doesn't reboot itself, overheat,
or freeze. The monitor doesn't flicker off. The sound card works. And I
have enough storage space to do video editing now. So, that means I can
finally edit the videos I wanted to do earlier this year. Watch for a
video on electrolysis, an interview with my parents, an interview with
me, a discussion with a nationally certified electrolysis practitioner
and educator, and others. I've been holding the footage for quite some
Some of you are probably wondering why I haven't posted the wedding
pictures yet. Yeah...during the computer upgrade, they accidentally got
deleted. My father is sending me a cd with all the pictures I took on
it. He said he went through and deleted the junk ones. I really hope he
didn't get rid of the ones I wanted to keep. That would really bother
me. I took about 200 pictures at the reception. I even got offered a
job by the photographer there. She really liked my eye apparently. She
offered it to me several times. I wish I wasn't still in school...I may
have taken that offer otherwise. The pictures turned out really cool
though. I'm really proud of them. Hopefully I'll get the disk soon and
you can all see some of them. I'm not going to post all of them, since
that's a lot of pictures and space. I'll just post some of my
Let's see...my life...not much excitement really. I can tell I'm
itching to be done with school. I don't care much for being in school
right now. I still do what I have to and such. I'm going to my classes
and trying to keep up. I just don't really want to be doing the college
thing anymore. Thank god this is my last year. I don't think I could
take school for much longer. I will definitely take a break before even
thinking about grad school. I just want to have one job in which I work
that job 40 hours a week. Then...I may have other stuff...but I'm not
worried about homework or reading 50 textbook pages a night. It'd be
nice just to have less on my plate. Why do I have to get myself
involved so much?
On a happy "Jess is relaxing somewhat" note, I went to see Serenity on
Friday. I made sure to finish Firefly before seeing it. It was a blast.
I did a 7 hour marathon Friday and finished it at the movie. The series
rocked and it's sad that it only made 10 million dollars the first
weekend. People need to see this film. The show was charming and didn't
deserve to be cancelled. Stupid people at Fox....:( It'll be sad if
this film is the end of the show.
I also went shopping on Saturday. I can afford to buy myself some
clothing and such. So I did. Its starting to get cold out again. So I
needed something to keep me a bit warmer. I bought a couple wrap
sweaters. Those are both pretty and warm. I'm happy with that purchase.
I'm also happy with the purchase of my halloween costume. Just
wait...you'll love it.
Chris is getting me addicted to Smallville. He's become addicted to
buying TV series on DVD. So, when he gets them, I end up watching them.
I don't nearly have as much time to watch them as he does, but I try.I
wanted to see Smallville before, but I never got the chance. I watched
the first episode, and it was pretty cool. So I'll probably be watching
a lot of that too.
Oh yeah, I bought a guitar. It's pretty. I don't know how to play it
yet, but I'm teaching myself. It's slow going, but I like it. When I
learn how to play decent, I'll record some of it for the site. :)
Anyway, I should get to bed. I need sleep to recover from my sinus
cold. See ya soon.
Posted on September 16th 2005, 10:37 pm
I'm skipping out of school today...YAY!!! It's fun. I'm actually
skipping for a good reason though. My sister gets married tomorrow. I'm
a bridesmaid...so I kinda have to be here. Plus, I informed my
professor, and even though he's usually a hard ass about stuff, he told
me to go despite it being not an officially santioned absence. Plus I
don't work on Fridays. So it isn't really skipping...but it feels like it.
This morning I got my nails done professionally. My first ever french
manicure...kinda cool. I did my toenails to match my dress. Don't
worry, I'll take pictures. Tomorrow I get my first ever up-do too. That
should be fun and interesting all wrapped into one. I've heard it's
heavy due to all of the bobby pins and it may give me a headache
because of the hair being pulled so much. We'll see I guess.
So...as you may have noticed, the site is updated FINALLY. There was
one or two things on the main page that just didnt look quite right
until Yesterday. So I did it then. There are still a few things
missing, but I'll get to them soon. Just a bit of copying and pasting.
I hope you enjoy it. I put a lot of thought into the way it looks now.
I really like it. So I hope you do too.
Here are some of the features that I want to add still:
If you think of things, comment and add them.
School is going well so far. My classes are still awesome. It's hard to
keep up with the amount of reading I have, but I'm managing. I gave a
presentation on Thursday that rocked my socks. I didn't expect it to go
as well as it did. I've stayed after almost every day to talk to my
professors. I've enjoyed it a lot.
Because I like my classes so much, I decided to lighten my load a bit.
I dropped two of my four jobs. I am no longer running a commission of
Student Senate. As much as I cared about it, I needed the time for
things that were more important and more focused on my major. I also
dropped the web job I had with housing. I just didn't have enough time
to allocate to it. I'd rather give both jobs to people who can put the
time in that each job deserves. I think it was a really good decision.
Less money, but that's not as much of an issue this year.
Hmmm, well the rehearsal dinner is tonight and I have a few things to
do before then. So I better run. I'll post new pictures of the wedding
this coming week. :) See ya'll lata.
Posted on September 11th 2005, 8:06 am
Gaping upwards at the burning sky
through cloudy eyes
I see clearly the comforting light
as blue as my wilting heart
like emerald green flames of my envy
rising towards unseeing heights
disappearing in the depths
pinons of an unknown dance
streaking like tears
dissipating into the river of stars
as fleeting as infatuation...
The aurora of my heart.
Posted on September 8th 2005, 5:57 am
Today was a good day. Even though I woke up all stressed out and
lost sleep because of worrying about the Open House, today really just
rocked. I woke up all worried that I wouldn't have everything ready and
that people wouldn't come to the Open House. Plus, I got a call from my
advertising director about forgetting to lock up the studio. After that
call I freaked out because I forgot to tell her we had to put our
banner on a specific side of the building. We would get yelled at.
So...sleep didn't work out so well.
All the worry was for naught though. The Open House went so great. Lots
of people came and applied. The interviews went awesome for the staff
that was hiring. People had fun. I finally felt like things were
getting going. Also, I'm so excited now for how awesome this semester
is going to be with the studio. Now I just got to remember that my
school work is more important...;).
OK, beyond that, I should give a Sabrina update. The reason I sent that
message to her was because she just wasn't communicating. If you've
read my diary, you know that I've had issues with girls just ceasing
all contact with me. So, I wasn't about to let that happen with her.
Turns out she's just been really bad at communicating lately. Maira is
just a friend of hers and she sincerely apologized for freaking me out
and hurting me. I sent a reply back basically stating what my friends
were telling me and that I was hurt more than I was mad. I told her
that the relationship would die if we didn't talk...etc. I was very to
the point..maybe even blunt, but it was necessary. She got the point.
I knew she got the point when she referred to herself as a "worthless
girlfriend". I don't think she's worthless and I told her that. I mean,
the reason I even was upset in the first place was because I cared.
So...I really think things will be better now. I'll keep you posted on
Speaking of changes, the final touches of the new design are underway.
It's slower going now that the school year started up, but I'll have it
for you all soon. Sorry to keep you all waiting on it. Just a little
longer. Anyway, sleep time for me. G'night.
Posted on September 6th 2005, 7:15 am
This is all I'm going to post:
So, It’s been a week since we last talked. I’ve sent you messages on RvB. I’ve sent you a couple e-mails that I put a lot of time and emotion into…music, pictures, poetry…I’ve heard nothing back. Not a thing. You seem to be willing to put time into writing journal entries and photoshopping images, but you wont take the time to even say hello to someone you supposedly love.
Sabrina, I’m sick of being the sole supporter of this relationship. I keep sending you hellos and e-mails and get nothing back. A relationship isn’t supposed to be one sided like this. If you are unwilling to give the time to communicate with me even in small amounts, then I can’t be in this relationship. In fact, if that’s the case…we have no relationship.
On top of that, I signed on the other day and saw that picture of you with “your girlfriend Maira” in your profile. I don’t know what the hell is going on…but needless to say I very much have every right to be pissed and hurt. Love isn’t just a word hun, it’s an oath. And it shouldn’t be taken as lightly as you seem to.
So what’s it going to be Sabrina?
I sent that about ten minutes ago. I was planning on waiting, but
several friends advised me to not wait. So I didn't. We'll see what