Hey all. Sorry for the lack of posting. The title explains it all. I will have a long and huge update for you very soon. Trust me it's been on my mind. The long and the short of it is that I'm running around like a chicken with my head cut off with so much crap to do. I'm actually writing this from the TV studio office. I'd better get home and finish my homework for the night otherwise I lose points. Talk to you in a day or so. BYE!!!

Luv,

headless chicken...er....

Jess

Hey all,

I gave a training session on video editing tonight with my friend Sam. We were just goofing around and experimenting, but I had an idea of what I wanted to do. We ended up putting together a quick six second video clip. It's of me dusting her like she's a vampire in Buffy. Here is the result of our efforts. It's not spectacular, but it taught her the basics. It was a lot of fun to do. I wish I could put more effort into it.

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Enjoy :)

Luv,

Jess

I hate trying to find a doctor. When I was looking for a gynecologist, I kept getting declined because they don't deal with transgender patients. Now I'm looking for an endocrinologist. Guess what? They don't deal with transgendered patients. Surprise Surprise. No, of course they tell me that the closest doctor is an hour and a half away. Get me as far away from them as possible. Would it really hurt them to learn a little bit more about their field? I mean really...I've been a guinea pig before. I'm typically always the first trans patient the doctor will see. It's this damn closed minded town. Grrrrr....

Frustrated,

Jess

Previously on Jessica's Diary....

Jess talked about her busy life with the miniseries she's working on with the studio. There's the possibility of an internship in California. She's taking on so much that she's running herself ragged. Just then she mentioned a love life collective gasp.

And now...the continuation...

So here's my love life update.

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ok just kidding, I actually do have an update.

This past weekend I went to visit Audrey. She's awesome. I haven't seen her in 9 months. Going into this weekend I wasn't sure what to think. She invited me over to spend the weekend with her a few weeks ago. I didn't really know what that meant when it comes to her and my relationship. I went into it wondering what was going to happen. I even discussed it with a few friends of mine. Every single one of them went "ooooooooo, Jessica and Audrey...ooooooo" and I had to quell their fifth grade tone of voice to explain. Still they all assumed HLA...meaning Hot Lesbian Action, a term I had never heard before last week.

Now, I know Audrey, and I know our relationship. And I wasn't sure, but I was leaning pretty strongly towards the "Audrey and I haven't seen each other in a while, we're just friends, and that's all this is" side. But a part of me was leaning towards the "dude, she's inviting you over to her house just the two of you for a weekend, what do you think is going to happen." I wasn't sure I wanted that. I like our friendship. Thankfully, I was right with the first assumption. Audrey and I are just friends. Nothing happened.

Well, nothing happened in the sexual, making out sort of sense. Stuff happened. Like, for example, when I got there, there were three other people there. None of those three were invited. Audrey was not happy about it. After about five minutes, I wasn't happy about it either.

Audrey and I have a mutual friend....Ashley. Well, she's more of an acquaintence to me. Anyway, the best way to describe her is a womanizer. She has sex with anyone she can. Oh, and she's not the most attractive woman either by a long shot. She has a huuuuge thing for Audrey and always pushes herself in. She had a flight to New York that was supposed to leave that night. Due to a large snowstorm, it was cancelled. So, she decided it would be fun to impose on Audrey and stay over night. Not only that, she brought a girl she met at the airport five minutes prior too. Oh, and then she called this girl, Amanda, to come and stay as well. Now we have a party...fun fun.

Yeah, this ruined Audrey and my night pretty handily. Ashley was obnoxious. She was drinking , and she was eating Audrey's food. Thankfully after a time, she went to bed. The airport girl went to sleep early. So it was just Audrey, Amanda, and me there. We were chatting it up for an hour or so. Then Audrey went to bed. So it was Amanda and I. At first I was a little uncomfortable, but Amanda is pretty cool. Not to mention, she's gorgeous, gay, and single.

Here's the cool thing. I never expect anything these days as far as meeting people is concerned. I generally assume no one is interested in a trans girl, so I just talk like it's your average everyday conversation with a friend. Well, it was a good conversation, and eventually Amanda asked for my number. Now, granted, it wasn't a "so....can I have your number?" It was more just slipped in there all unnoticed like. We were talking about computers and stuff. She knows about computers!! She mentioned that there's something wrong with hers and doesn't know what to do with it. I told her about my work at the help desk and offered help. I said I would write it down, but it would be easier to e-mail it. She said she'd get my address from Audrey. We then moved on to other stuff. I don't know exactly how we got there, but I ended up mentioning my voicemail message and suggested that she would probably like it. I said if I had my phone, I'd let her hear it. She thought that was cool and said "I should get your number and call it later." I was a little surprised to be honest. After a few seconds she was like "Is that ok?" and I responded with "Yeah...yeah definitely" and gave it to her.

So that's how it went. I wasn't sure at all about the feeling of it. It could have meant she just wanted it to be friends or get computer help. I was ok with that if that's what she meant, and I told myself that it meant nothing. Yet, I dwelled on it all the next day. I kept wondering what it meant. I told Audrey about it, and she was smiling about it. She was happy we hit it off that night. My curiosity was just growing all day. Amanda had left early in the morning on Saturday and I didn't get to say goodbye. She was heading down to Florida for a softball tournament. So, midway through the day I sent her a "sorry I didn't get to say good bye. Have a safe trip. It was fun chatting." text message. She replied with a "It was awesome chatting. Call her sometime. I can help her with her computer and she can teach me guitar." message. That sent good signals. So, we'll see where it goes. I'm still trying to keep my hopes down. Though, that's a bit like trying to hold a vampire back behind a school door. (Sorry...been watching a lot of Buffy today).

Anyway, that's the cool love life update. I think I'll leave my updates at that for tonight. I hope you enjoyed them.

Luv,

Jess

Hey everyone,

I haven't been posting much lately, and I think the subject of this entry sums it up pretty well. Holy crap have I been busy. I think it could easily be said with one simple word: miniseries. The miniseries I decided would be a good idea to undertake this semester has been sucking up my time like a black hole. The only thing is, I'm not regretting it at all. In fact, I'm loving every minute of it.

If I haven't mentioned it before, the series is called "Almost 1". It's a play on the popular real-time series 24. Each episode is five minutes long, and there will be ten episodes total. Do the math and you'll understand why it's titled the way it is. Yes, we are geeks, but at least we're enjoying it. So far we have three episodes done.

The thing is, I never would have assumed it would take this long to do a five minute episode. To get all our shots, it takes a good five hours of shooting...maybe more. After we have that done, we have to capture and edit all the video. That takes a good 10 to 15 hours. In the end, it takes about 20 hours to make a good solid episode with good shots, decent editing, music, sound effects, and any special effects work we can do. All that for a really nice looking five minute episode. I can't imagine an hour episode or a three hour movie.

I've been doing a lot of the editing. Since that's what takes the most time, it has been keeping me up long hours and also keeping me away from my homework. I don't mind really. I think it's great. I wish I didn't have class or another job to deal with though. If this was my sole job, I'd be so happy right now. Unfortunately, I still have to keep decent grades, and I still have to work my other job. So I've been running myself a bit ragged.

The cool thing is that I've used the first episode as a submission for an internship. I've applied to the Academy of Television Arts and Sciences for their summer program. It's like the internship to get. It pays $4000, lasts 8 weeks, and is in California. I hope I get it. I think I stand a decent shot at it, but I've learned not to get my hopes up too high these days. I typically find myself extremely disappointed when I do. I'll know by mid April though.

I'll do my best to keep you all posted on that. In the meantime, I'm just trying to survive the semester. I keep giving myself more and more things to do. Like for example, the statewide group that asked me to present to the college system board is asking me to go to their next general assembly. I also volunteered to take on the task of organizing the women's leadership conference for next year. What was I thinking? I swear, If I survive this semester, I need a cape. I'll be sure I have the abilities of a superhero if I'm able to survive through all this.

Well, that's it for the miniseries update, now onto the love life update... Stay tuned.

Luv,

Jess