Previously on Jessica's Diary....

Jess talked about her busy life with the miniseries she's working on with the studio. There's the possibility of an internship in California. She's taking on so much that she's running herself ragged. Just then she mentioned a love life collective gasp.

And now...the continuation...

So here's my love life update.

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ok just kidding, I actually do have an update.

This past weekend I went to visit Audrey. She's awesome. I haven't seen her in 9 months. Going into this weekend I wasn't sure what to think. She invited me over to spend the weekend with her a few weeks ago. I didn't really know what that meant when it comes to her and my relationship. I went into it wondering what was going to happen. I even discussed it with a few friends of mine. Every single one of them went "ooooooooo, Jessica and Audrey...ooooooo" and I had to quell their fifth grade tone of voice to explain. Still they all assumed HLA...meaning Hot Lesbian Action, a term I had never heard before last week.

Now, I know Audrey, and I know our relationship. And I wasn't sure, but I was leaning pretty strongly towards the "Audrey and I haven't seen each other in a while, we're just friends, and that's all this is" side. But a part of me was leaning towards the "dude, she's inviting you over to her house just the two of you for a weekend, what do you think is going to happen." I wasn't sure I wanted that. I like our friendship. Thankfully, I was right with the first assumption. Audrey and I are just friends. Nothing happened.

Well, nothing happened in the sexual, making out sort of sense. Stuff happened. Like, for example, when I got there, there were three other people there. None of those three were invited. Audrey was not happy about it. After about five minutes, I wasn't happy about it either.

Audrey and I have a mutual friend....Ashley. Well, she's more of an acquaintence to me. Anyway, the best way to describe her is a womanizer. She has sex with anyone she can. Oh, and she's not the most attractive woman either by a long shot. She has a huuuuge thing for Audrey and always pushes herself in. She had a flight to New York that was supposed to leave that night. Due to a large snowstorm, it was cancelled. So, she decided it would be fun to impose on Audrey and stay over night. Not only that, she brought a girl she met at the airport five minutes prior too. Oh, and then she called this girl, Amanda, to come and stay as well. Now we have a party...fun fun.

Yeah, this ruined Audrey and my night pretty handily. Ashley was obnoxious. She was drinking , and she was eating Audrey's food. Thankfully after a time, she went to bed. The airport girl went to sleep early. So it was just Audrey, Amanda, and me there. We were chatting it up for an hour or so. Then Audrey went to bed. So it was Amanda and I. At first I was a little uncomfortable, but Amanda is pretty cool. Not to mention, she's gorgeous, gay, and single.

Here's the cool thing. I never expect anything these days as far as meeting people is concerned. I generally assume no one is interested in a trans girl, so I just talk like it's your average everyday conversation with a friend. Well, it was a good conversation, and eventually Amanda asked for my number. Now, granted, it wasn't a "so....can I have your number?" It was more just slipped in there all unnoticed like. We were talking about computers and stuff. She knows about computers!! She mentioned that there's something wrong with hers and doesn't know what to do with it. I told her about my work at the help desk and offered help. I said I would write it down, but it would be easier to e-mail it. She said she'd get my address from Audrey. We then moved on to other stuff. I don't know exactly how we got there, but I ended up mentioning my voicemail message and suggested that she would probably like it. I said if I had my phone, I'd let her hear it. She thought that was cool and said "I should get your number and call it later." I was a little surprised to be honest. After a few seconds she was like "Is that ok?" and I responded with "Yeah...yeah definitely" and gave it to her.

So that's how it went. I wasn't sure at all about the feeling of it. It could have meant she just wanted it to be friends or get computer help. I was ok with that if that's what she meant, and I told myself that it meant nothing. Yet, I dwelled on it all the next day. I kept wondering what it meant. I told Audrey about it, and she was smiling about it. She was happy we hit it off that night. My curiosity was just growing all day. Amanda had left early in the morning on Saturday and I didn't get to say goodbye. She was heading down to Florida for a softball tournament. So, midway through the day I sent her a "sorry I didn't get to say good bye. Have a safe trip. It was fun chatting." text message. She replied with a "It was awesome chatting. Call her sometime. I can help her with her computer and she can teach me guitar." message. That sent good signals. So, we'll see where it goes. I'm still trying to keep my hopes down. Though, that's a bit like trying to hold a vampire back behind a school door. (Sorry...been watching a lot of Buffy today).

Anyway, that's the cool love life update. I think I'll leave my updates at that for tonight. I hope you enjoyed them.

Luv,

Jess