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Well, for the most part, the good Karma has stuck with me. I got a raise yesterday. I went shopping the day before and had fun. Got some cool new clothes. Saw the Matrix Reloaded for the second time. And...since I've been so busy, I haven't had to see much of my sisters. That makes it all the better. Today I also got offered a position in the shoes department. I don't know if I want to take it yet. It's probably less flexible than my current area. I'll give it a little time yet.

I've definitely made several new friends. Some at work and some not, but all of them are good. The friends I've made at work are so wonderful to have. They help the day go faster and put a smile on my face at the same time. There's this one girl, who happens to be tall like me, that has become one of my better friends. We make faces at each other, poke each other, and pick on people...all in good fun too. Some of my coworkers creep me out.....well ok, just one or two, and both are boys. But still, I try to avoid them. All in all, it seems people like me at work. Chalk one up for the transgender team.

Digressing back to my sisters. I've pretty much concluded that if those two weren't here, my summer wouldn't be bad at all. They really seem to be the negativity in my life right now. So far, I get used for my opinion on clothing, fixing computer problems, and a nice target for blaming things on. My little sister makes a point to immediately turn the attention to me if she gets blamed for something. My older sister really tries hard to call me what I want to be called, and I appreciate that. But it seems she knows nothing about sympathy or empathy. She doesn't understand that I need a hug from time to time, nor does she seem to show interest. She usually just demeans me when I'm depressed and then insults my intelligence by telling me I should have expected people to treat me certain ways. She also has a huge issue with pointing out people's flaws. It's really friggin annoying. So yeah, I love them and all, but I'd rather they werent living at home this summer.

That's really my main complaint right now. Aside from that, things aren't too bad. Let's hope things get better. Time for bed. Another full day of work tomorrow.

Luv,

Jess

Today was nice. I slept late....as in 11:30. It was a peaceful sleep too, much unlike Sunday morning. I spent most of the day loafing around. Went online for a bit. That sort of thing. There was a new game on Homestarrunner.com that was just excellent. I did my laundry, played a video game...the Fellowship of the Ring, it's loads of fun, and then I went and visited my friend at his store. That's always fun, though I should really learn to role play instead of just watching the game like I have been doing. Two other people I hadn't seen in almost a year showed up too. We had a good time. The four of us hung around after the store closed and had a lightsaber fight in the parking lot. I'm glad I keep those things in the car. I hope we can have more fun like that soon. It's great for making me smile and happy.

On two other happy notes...first, I met a new t-girl. She's a couple years younger than I, but she's really nice. She lives somewhat local, so we're going to hang out on Wednesday. We're both excited about that. The other cool thing...I got a call from an old high school friend tonight. She's lesbian, and we haven't seen each other in years now. She's going to be coming to my party too. It's going to be cool. So, overall, a great day. I hope tomorrow keeps up the good Karma...I work 14 hours. Boy I can't wait. We'll see, I'm sure. Time for sleep. Good Night.

Luv,

Jess

This weekend sucked. I worked the whole time again. But what's worse, Sunday was supposed to be my day to sleep in. What do I wake up to? My mother in a heated mood arguing and yelling at everyone in the house. The vaccuum is going too. I couldn't sleep. What a great way to start off the day. They after I finally decide to deal with it, I got up and went downstairs. During breakfast it was more of a yelling fest. Everyone was upset. And cause of that, I was upset for the next four hours. It really spoiled my day.

Three customers at separate times yesterday laughed at me to my face. They talked about me like I couldn't hear them. What a bunch of jerks. I cried later. In that melancholy mood, I drove around and looked at stuff from my childhood. Then I went looking for food and started crying at the grocery store. Thankfully I ran into a friend of mine. She helped calm me down and offered to talk after she was done working. The other good thing that happened this weekend was that an old friend of mine finally decided to talk to me instead of being wigged out. So, at least we're making progress here.

I'm sure you're all dying to hear what happened with the whole sexual harassment thing though from months back. Well, it took two months of work. I was on paid leave the whole time, but my boss finally got fired. I was so happy too. It happened during finals week of school, so it brought joy to me during my mass of tests to take. I ended up getting a large check too. Around $550...not that the money was very important at all. I was just happy to be done with the whole thing.

And on another happy note, I got a 3.62 this past semester. Go me. I kick ass. I hope my grades stay that high. With my transition going as well as it is, I think I'll be fine. I can't wait for school to start again actually. It's a lot better than working full time and putting up with bitchy sisters. September is taking it's sweet time getting here. Anyway, I'm sleepy. Time for sleep. G'night.

Luv,

Jess

I have only one thing to say to the consumers of Wal-Mart: DEBIT CARD. I'm sick of people taking ten minutes to write out a check, then I need to get an ID from them...let the damn thing read the check, print it, then finally be done. Debit Cards were designed for speed and ease. Start learning to use them.

OK, enough complaining. I did learn today that getting enough sleep the night before makes the whole day go better. I'm going to try that more often from now on. I don't remember if I mentioned that a week ago was my fourth laser treatment. I'm still shedding and will be for at least two more weeks. So far, the annoying areas are still there, and due to the laser, they are darker and more visible. It seems to draw attention only from the children though. I find that odd. They are looking up at me and the hair must create more of a shadow from that angle or something. It's either that, or adults are just better at covering up. Could go either way there.

The other thing that recently happened was my sister's graduation party. It went really well. I had planned on wearing a skirt, but that didn't end up happening. Still, my whole family was really nice. I got a lot of "Didn't recognize you at first"s and "You look great"s. So, that was good. I had to tell the same story and details several times though. That got old. I'm a really lucky t-girl though, to have such a great family. Too bad my sisters have to be snots most of the time. To think that if I had been born a female, I would have turned out that way too. Maybe it's better being trans in that respect. Oh well, I'm going to get some sleep again tonight. Good Night all.

Luv,

Jess

Today I worked a combined total of 13 hours. And they asked me to come in early tomorrow too. So I'm dead tired. I specifically asked for part time hours for this very reason, but for some reason, they've given me full time hours anyway. I dislike them. If it shows up like that the schedule after the one they just posted, I'm going to complain. It sucks though, cause now I can't go to the fireworks with my parents...any of them. There are two main ones we go to. I got scheduled through both of them. This summer sucks so much. I'm working all the friggin time. My friends are either living in some other town or they are in some serious relationship in which they spend 100% of their time with their significant other, and their friends don't exist. Makes me feel both loved and bored. I want school to start again. Anyway, time for sleep. Good Night.

Luv,

Jessica