Posted on June 23rd 2003, 7:10 am
This weekend sucked. I worked the whole time again. But what's worse, Sunday was supposed to be my day to sleep in. What do I wake up to? My mother in a heated mood arguing and yelling at everyone in the house. The vaccuum is going too. I couldn't sleep. What a great way to start off the day. They after I finally decide to deal with it, I got up and went downstairs. During breakfast it was more of a yelling fest. Everyone was upset. And cause of that, I was upset for the next four hours. It really spoiled my day.
Three customers at separate times yesterday laughed at me to my face. They talked about me like I couldn't hear them. What a bunch of jerks. I cried later. In that melancholy mood, I drove around and looked at stuff from my childhood. Then I went looking for food and started crying at the grocery store. Thankfully I ran into a friend of mine. She helped calm me down and offered to talk after she was done working. The other good thing that happened this weekend was that an old friend of mine finally decided to talk to me instead of being wigged out. So, at least we're making progress here.
I'm sure you're all dying to hear what happened with the whole sexual harassment thing though from months back. Well, it took two months of work. I was on paid leave the whole time, but my boss finally got fired. I was so happy too. It happened during finals week of school, so it brought joy to me during my mass of tests to take. I ended up getting a large check too. Around $550...not that the money was very important at all. I was just happy to be done with the whole thing.
And on another happy note, I got a 3.62 this past semester. Go me. I kick ass. I hope my grades stay that high. With my transition going as well as it is, I think I'll be fine. I can't wait for school to start again actually. It's a lot better than working full time and putting up with bitchy sisters. September is taking it's sweet time getting here. Anyway, I'm sleepy. Time for sleep. G'night.
Posted on June 20th 2003, 6:05 am
I have only one thing to say to the consumers of Wal-Mart: DEBIT CARD. I'm sick of people taking ten minutes to write out a check, then I need to get an ID from them...let the damn thing read the check, print it, then finally be done. Debit Cards were designed for speed and ease. Start learning to use them.
OK, enough complaining. I did learn today that getting enough sleep the night before makes the whole day go better. I'm going to try that more often from now on. I don't remember if I mentioned that a week ago was my fourth laser treatment. I'm still shedding and will be for at least two more weeks. So far, the annoying areas are still there, and due to the laser, they are darker and more visible. It seems to draw attention only from the children though. I find that odd. They are looking up at me and the hair must create more of a shadow from that angle or something. It's either that, or adults are just better at covering up. Could go either way there.
The other thing that recently happened was my sister's graduation party. It went really well. I had planned on wearing a skirt, but that didn't end up happening. Still, my whole family was really nice. I got a lot of "Didn't recognize you at first"s and "You look great"s. So, that was good. I had to tell the same story and details several times though. That got old. I'm a really lucky t-girl though, to have such a great family. Too bad my sisters have to be snots most of the time. To think that if I had been born a female, I would have turned out that way too. Maybe it's better being trans in that respect. Oh well, I'm going to get some sleep again tonight. Good Night all.
Posted on June 18th 2003, 6:56 am
Today I worked a combined total of 13 hours. And they asked me to come in early tomorrow too. So I'm dead tired. I specifically asked for part time hours for this very reason, but for some reason, they've given me full time hours anyway. I dislike them. If it shows up like that the schedule after the one they just posted, I'm going to complain. It sucks though, cause now I can't go to the fireworks with my parents...any of them. There are two main ones we go to. I got scheduled through both of them. This summer sucks so much. I'm working all the friggin time. My friends are either living in some other town or they are in some serious relationship in which they spend 100% of their time with their significant other, and their friends don't exist. Makes me feel both loved and bored. I want school to start again. Anyway, time for sleep. Good Night.
Posted on June 16th 2003, 6:21 am
This weekend was weird. Yesterday was my sister's graduation party. We had tons of family over. Everyone was so nice to me. I have a great family when it comes to support. My sister was even nice to me for the day. That in itself was a miracle. I played catch with her and her boyfriend. It was nice. The food was excellent too. My family really knows how to cook. The whole day was nice.
Sunday proved my theory. It's very close to Murphy's Law. Basically, if you have a really good day, the following day or a day in the near future will be crap. Or, the other way around. It's like a luck wake. You drag the bad/good Karma behind you, and eventually it catches up. That was today. This was a day where my emotions were toyed with, my patience tested, my sanity on the edge, and by the end of it, I was so sick of hearing an argumentative tone that I felt like I wanted to puke.
There was one good thing that happened today, and that was seeing 'Bruce Almighty." It was a great reminder of what I believe in and such. I enjoyed the story. It reinforces my long time feelings that God will speak through us in any way necessary. We just have to look for it. I've neglected my faith lately, and it's because I had lost faith in God's people. Now, I haven't gained much in the faith in his people, but my prior faith in him is there again. And that's a good thing. I feel better I guess.
I did have a thought about religion today though. It's funny to me how religions are. There are thousands of different religions out there. Buddhists, Christians, Jews, Islamics, Shinto, American Indian, etc. There are only a small few of all those religions that are open to other possibilities. Almost every single one of them thinks they have the right idea and all the other religions are wrong. We are all so egotistical, and yet, when you really think about it.....do any of us really have any clue? That really gets me I guess. I mean, with that in mind, where do we get off telling others what is right and what is wrong? It wouldn't surprise me if we are all completely wrong. I guess I can wait and see. Just food for thought I guess.
With that, I'm out of here. Bye.
Posted on June 5th 2003, 7:18 am
Well, I finally got the live diaries working. However, there are some formatting issues I still need to take care of. That'll happen sometime in the next week hopefully. I may need to call in some help on that one. Otherwise I may need to rework the whole thing, which I don't really want to do. So, we'll see what happens. But if I don't get to sleep, I'm going to hate myself in the morning when I have to get up for work. Actually, I'll probably hate myself for not going to bed about three hours ago anyway. But no sense in making it worse. I'll write soon.