Posted on September 16th 2005, 10:37 pm
I'm skipping out of school today...YAY!!! It's fun. I'm actually
skipping for a good reason though. My sister gets married tomorrow. I'm
a bridesmaid...so I kinda have to be here. Plus, I informed my
professor, and even though he's usually a hard ass about stuff, he told
me to go despite it being not an officially santioned absence. Plus I
don't work on Fridays. So it isn't really skipping...but it feels like it.
This morning I got my nails done professionally. My first ever french
manicure...kinda cool. I did my toenails to match my dress. Don't
worry, I'll take pictures. Tomorrow I get my first ever up-do too. That
should be fun and interesting all wrapped into one. I've heard it's
heavy due to all of the bobby pins and it may give me a headache
because of the hair being pulled so much. We'll see I guess.
So...as you may have noticed, the site is updated FINALLY. There was
one or two things on the main page that just didnt look quite right
until Yesterday. So I did it then. There are still a few things
missing, but I'll get to them soon. Just a bit of copying and pasting.
I hope you enjoy it. I put a lot of thought into the way it looks now.
I really like it. So I hope you do too.
Here are some of the features that I want to add still:
If you think of things, comment and add them.
School is going well so far. My classes are still awesome. It's hard to
keep up with the amount of reading I have, but I'm managing. I gave a
presentation on Thursday that rocked my socks. I didn't expect it to go
as well as it did. I've stayed after almost every day to talk to my
professors. I've enjoyed it a lot.
Because I like my classes so much, I decided to lighten my load a bit.
I dropped two of my four jobs. I am no longer running a commission of
Student Senate. As much as I cared about it, I needed the time for
things that were more important and more focused on my major. I also
dropped the web job I had with housing. I just didn't have enough time
to allocate to it. I'd rather give both jobs to people who can put the
time in that each job deserves. I think it was a really good decision.
Less money, but that's not as much of an issue this year.
Hmmm, well the rehearsal dinner is tonight and I have a few things to
do before then. So I better run. I'll post new pictures of the wedding
this coming week. :) See ya'll lata.
Posted on September 11th 2005, 8:06 am
Gaping upwards at the burning sky
through cloudy eyes
I see clearly the comforting light
as blue as my wilting heart
like emerald green flames of my envy
rising towards unseeing heights
disappearing in the depths
pinons of an unknown dance
streaking like tears
dissipating into the river of stars
as fleeting as infatuation...
The aurora of my heart.
Posted on September 8th 2005, 5:57 am
Today was a good day. Even though I woke up all stressed out and
lost sleep because of worrying about the Open House, today really just
rocked. I woke up all worried that I wouldn't have everything ready and
that people wouldn't come to the Open House. Plus, I got a call from my
advertising director about forgetting to lock up the studio. After that
call I freaked out because I forgot to tell her we had to put our
banner on a specific side of the building. We would get yelled at.
So...sleep didn't work out so well.
All the worry was for naught though. The Open House went so great. Lots
of people came and applied. The interviews went awesome for the staff
that was hiring. People had fun. I finally felt like things were
getting going. Also, I'm so excited now for how awesome this semester
is going to be with the studio. Now I just got to remember that my
school work is more important...;).
OK, beyond that, I should give a Sabrina update. The reason I sent that
message to her was because she just wasn't communicating. If you've
read my diary, you know that I've had issues with girls just ceasing
all contact with me. So, I wasn't about to let that happen with her.
Turns out she's just been really bad at communicating lately. Maira is
just a friend of hers and she sincerely apologized for freaking me out
and hurting me. I sent a reply back basically stating what my friends
were telling me and that I was hurt more than I was mad. I told her
that the relationship would die if we didn't talk...etc. I was very to
the point..maybe even blunt, but it was necessary. She got the point.
I knew she got the point when she referred to herself as a "worthless
girlfriend". I don't think she's worthless and I told her that. I mean,
the reason I even was upset in the first place was because I cared.
So...I really think things will be better now. I'll keep you posted on
Speaking of changes, the final touches of the new design are underway.
It's slower going now that the school year started up, but I'll have it
for you all soon. Sorry to keep you all waiting on it. Just a little
longer. Anyway, sleep time for me. G'night.
Posted on September 6th 2005, 7:15 am
This is all I'm going to post:
So, It’s been a week since we last talked. I’ve sent you messages on RvB. I’ve sent you a couple e-mails that I put a lot of time and emotion into…music, pictures, poetry…I’ve heard nothing back. Not a thing. You seem to be willing to put time into writing journal entries and photoshopping images, but you wont take the time to even say hello to someone you supposedly love.
Sabrina, I’m sick of being the sole supporter of this relationship. I keep sending you hellos and e-mails and get nothing back. A relationship isn’t supposed to be one sided like this. If you are unwilling to give the time to communicate with me even in small amounts, then I can’t be in this relationship. In fact, if that’s the case…we have no relationship.
On top of that, I signed on the other day and saw that picture of you with “your girlfriend Maira” in your profile. I don’t know what the hell is going on…but needless to say I very much have every right to be pissed and hurt. Love isn’t just a word hun, it’s an oath. And it shouldn’t be taken as lightly as you seem to.
So what’s it going to be Sabrina?
I sent that about ten minutes ago. I was planning on waiting, but
several friends advised me to not wait. So I didn't. We'll see what
Posted on August 30th 2005, 6:57 am
I have spent the last two weeks working my ass off. School is
starting for me in one week. Right now I'm just basically preparing for
next week at the TV station. Last week was RA training for housing. I
worked soooo much last week. It was 12 hours a day every day. Wednesday
through Friday was RA camp...which I had to go to. It was a two night
stay at a YMCA camp. They had group showers. So...most of us didn't
No, I'm not an RA. I was there as tech support. I took pictures and did
video taping. I also made sure the data projector and laptop were ready
when the presenters needed it. I'm fairly certain I worked harder than
anyone else there. I'm including the assistant and associate directors
of housing in that too. I worked so much I was worn out by the night
and slept early and long. What a week.
I spent the weekend recovering. Now I'm back at it, but at least it's
at my own pace now. I've been very productive while working. So, that's
good. I'm productive all around it seems. The site, though most of you
haven't seen it yet, has been slowly coming along. The new
Transcyclopedia is set up and I've been copying information over as
well as adding new information. I wish I had thought of doing this
earlier. It's going to make this site so much more dynamic and easier
to use. So yeah...a few more days of moving data, and I think it's
about time to switch over to the new look.
Sabrina and I are almost to the two month mark. So...I can easily say
we've surpassed the length of any relationship I've had within the past
five years. That's quite an accomplishment. The relationship has had
it's ups and downs. I've learned a lot about my own issues though. She
and I have had some important conversations recently about
communication and such. I think she understands how important it is for
me to hear certain things and keep in contact while we're both busy at
school. We aren't going to see each other online much now that school
is going. So, I had to make sure our relationship didn't die from
stagnation. She may have been a bit naive about that, but it's
understandable. So yeah...still going strong.
Amazed? I am too. Jess has something positive to say about her love
life. It is quite a rare time indeed. In fact, the whole concept of
Jess having a love life is odd. Hopefully that oddness will pass
Kevin left for good this Saturday. I knew the time was coming all
summer. It came so much faster than I expected. He graduated in May and
worked here while his sublease lasted. Now he's three hours away. I
hate seeing friends leave, especially friends as good and close to me
as Kevin. When he left, I was surprised at how well I took it. It was
probably due to it not really feeling like he was going to be gone. It
wasn't until Saturday night that it really hit that he left. I walked
to the park and passed his place. As I looked over I realized that he
wasn't living there anymore. I couldn't go to visit him just to say hi.
No more cookouts. No more sitting and talking at 1:00 am on the bench
that I also walked past. I thought about it on my walk there, and when
I hit that same place on the way home...I started crying really hard.
It's even hard thinking about it now.
Sunday he called me just to say hi. It felt like normal. I told him
that I cried about him being gone. I could tell he was touched by it.
This whole year Kevin and I really bonded through the miniseries at the
studio, and just from hanging out. He was one of the only people that I
felt so comfortable with just hanging. Sometimes our creativity
clashed...but not in a bad way. I already miss him. I hope our
friendship never ends though.
I started watching Joss Whedon's Firefly this week. I've had it sitting
in my apartment all summer but never started watching it. Watching 24
took too long to get through, and I hadn't wanted to start another
series while watching that one. I'm really glad I'm watching it though.
It's really f-ing cool. I want to find the guy at Fox or whatever
network it was on that decided to cancel the show and slap him. He's
definitely one of the biggest fools in the entertainment industry.
Needless to say I am enjoying it and am looking forward to the upcoming
film "Serenity". Check it out if you get the chance.
Well, I think it's bedtime for me. I'll talk at you all some more later. Keep an eye on the site for the big change soon. Bye!