The real title of this post should be "Frustrations - a tale of a video podcaster", because that's how I feel.  I spent all day on the damn thing.  Took me a while to get the idea for the intro.  Then I had to dig up the footage.  Then I had to cut together some music for a theme.  Then lower thirds, animated background, and credits.  It's just after midnight, and I'm waiting for the final render. For some reason, it's taking forever.  I'll spare the technical details.

At one point during my search for a theme song, I considered writing one in garage band.  I thought it'd be neat to lay down some drum tracks and found info on how to get my rock band drum kit to work with my mac.  That's actually pretty neat.  Unfortunately I have no brass or strings included with garage band to compose with.  So I gave up.  Who wants a song made up of laser synths and single note acoustic guitar?

Despite getting this thing done, I feel like I've gotten nothing accomplished this weekend.  I wanted to spend some time on my resume, work on the website I have to work on, maybe expand on the database structures, look at my book chapters, watch a couple movies...wait I did that last one.

I saw two films this weekend.  I saw Hancock and Tropic Thunder.  Both were decent, Hancock was much better in my opinion.  I'm afraid that watching Tropic Thunder with my parents here really blew the film for me.  I had them over for homemade pizzas and movies.  They enjoyed Hancock, but I get my pickiness about comedies from them.  Usually I find films funny that they don't, like the Austin Powers movies and Life Aquatic.  However, for me, comedy is strongly influenced by who you watch it with.  If the group I'm with isn't laughing, I don't either.  My parents weren't.  In fact, they decided to go home middle of the movie.  It was late and they had to be up early.  If the movie was good, they'd have stayed and finished.  Oh well.

I finished watching it tonight.  I enjoyed it, but it wasn't great to me.  I thought the acting was great.  I just felt the humor was lost on me.  I got the satire.  Maybe it's just the war movie thing.  I dunno.  Maybe I should re-watch it with different people.

Hancock was great, but is anyone surprised I liked it? If it has anything to do with a superhero, I'm all over it.  It was actually a lot better than I thought it'd be.  I very much related to Will Smith's character, and Charlize Theron is always gorgeous. The sadness in Will Smith's eyes is something I've experienced personally recently.

Anyway, the long and the short of the news, the first edition of the podcast will be posted later today.  Oh and my friend Jessica deserves credit for giving me the idea for the next one.  Hopefully that one will go smoother.

I'm currently working on my first ever video podcast.  I'm excited about it.  It'll be focused on gender in the media.  I watched a video yesterday that just got me angry.  And now I feel like I need to say something about it.  So I'm producing a podcast.  It's been fun so far, but I'm not sure how I want to handle it.  I've got one camera, and it's the one that's built in to my iMac.  To use it for podcasting, there's a lot of crap I have to go through.  Plus, anyone who knows me knows I want to put out a nice looking production.  So I set up a portable blue screen and after recording it, did a chroma key on the footage, which worked better than I thought it would.  However, the video taken off the camera has to be rendered by final cut, which takes forever.  Also, I have no decent mic, so I have to use a rock band mic to get decent sound.  Essentially what I'm saying is that it's a pain in the ass to do right now.  I'm hoping to change that as time passes.

I've been looking tonight online for cheap digital video cameras that may be used.  Unfortunately, no one on ebay is selling for less than 100 bucks.  Plus, craigslist is just as bad.  These cameras are old people.  They don't sell MiniDV cameras anymore unless you look for them.  So...don't expect me to pay $100 or more dollars for something like that.  A flip camera in standard def sells for $130.  If I had a choice between a tape based camcorder that's old and used vs a tapeless web video camera with decent video that's brand new, I'll take the brand new one.

Unfortunately this argument is moot anyway.  Anyone who's seen my budget knows I cannot afford either.  If it was a 30 dollar estate sale, I might be able to swing it and write it off as a business expense.  Otherwise, I'm fucked.  Anyone have a digital camera that they're willing to donate?  I'd say even an old school Hi8 or something, but unfortunately I have no way of bringing that footage into my computer.  So it has to be digital.  It'd be so nice of you to donate it.  :)

All joking aside, it is frustrating not being able to shoot even a podcast without having to go through a pain in the ass process. Boo!  On that note, check for the podcast this weekend. :)

I had a revelation tonight! It has changed me.  It started earlier today.  I checked my mailbox and the priority mail envelope from the debt agency was there.  All the paperwork has been filled out and is back in the mail ready to be returned.  After that I decided to watch the Matrix.

No...I don't feel the world is a computer program.  Sometimes I feel as if it is holographic, but right now, I feel like it is what I make of it.  After the movie was over, I was thinking about how I am going to repay my debt because I made it happen.  I, of course, haven't repaid it yet, but I am on my way to making it happen.  I realized that I created that reality.  I am a powerful being.

I guess I am starting to see the power of the law of attraction.  We really do bring to ourselves what we visualize in our heads.  We are like gods, all of us.  We create our own world.  We can make anything happen.  It's not a matter of visualizing or wishing for it.  All we have to do is know it in our hearts, and its true.  With that knowledge, we can move mountains.  I have no doubt of that.

My optimism has returned.  My creative drive has returned.  And greatest of all, my motivation to make a difference is back.  It's time to get shit done.  2009 is a great year.  I just posted a new front page notice at about creating a brand new design for the backbone of the site.  I'm looking for volunteers.  So hopefully I'll get plenty of suggestions and offers for assistance.  It's high time I did something with the site.

It's time to make the gender revolution happen!

I'm a decent driver...not the best, but tonight I felt like James Bond.  It was pretty awesome.  We're getting some light flurries tonight, and the roads were a bit slick on my way home from work.  I got to the intersection I have to turn down to get to my apartment off of Oakland Ave, and as I went to make the turn, the car started sliding.  As per usual with a ford focus, the rear end started swinging around.  I'm so used to it that I started steering in the direction of the skid and started to regain control.  I ended up perfectly lining up with the road I needed as I regained full control.  I never stopped moving and just continued on down the road.  It was so perfectly timed, that the guy driving the SUV that was waiting at the corner  that watched the whole thing was laughing and apploading me in his car.  I had a big grin on my face and gave him a thumbs up.  Not going to lie...I felt damn cool after that, and I had to share.  I hope you can visualize it and join me in the coolness.  Yay for defensive driving!

No...I'm not bitching about my breakup.  I just have the song stuck in my head.  It's been there for at least a week now.  I even dropped the three dollars for both the mp3 download and the video on iTunes.  I can't help it.  It's a sexy video and a catchy song.  I find it incredibly impressive that those women can move like that.  I look like a dufus any time I try to dance, and no, there will be no video posting of that.

The news of the week is that I finally got called by the debt consolidation people.  I've been enrolled and start my payments on the 25th.  I'm just wainting for the paperwork to arrive via priority mail. 5 years I will be debt free.  That's a great feeling.  It's looking like the plan will save me 110 dollars a month, but we'll have to see for sure when all is said and done.

I also got my designs done for one of my clients.  That's been sent off and now I'm just waiting to hear back on the choice.  Then I can get started on the flash parts of it.  I'm actually kind of excited about it because it involves more learning.  I truly enjoy it.

Speaking of the web, after spending more time with my budget, I decided to start working on software for budget and money tracking online.  I don't want to pay for Quicken anymore.  Mint seems to have its downfalls, and I know from the past that when I design something, I really learn a lot.  I will learn how to budget better than any book.

I think I'm going to put together a database schema for translife too.  I think I might as well create my own social network site.  This will be fun / a lot of work.  Speaking of a lot of work, I haven't decided whether I should move my list of chapters for my book onto this blog, google docs, or just keep it on the pad I have it on.  I might get tempted to work on it at work.  I probably shouldn't do that.

Oh, and I was informed of a few jobs that I am planning on applying for.  That's Tuesday night's goal.  I'm going to attempt to keep myself busy every night until the weekend so I can relax then. Who knows though. Maybe I'll spend the weekend working on a new demo reel.  We'll see.

I'll post more about my recently developed workaholism soon.  Happy January.