Posted on December 29th 2008, 5:25 am
First off, I have to mention this since it happened yesterday and it was so incredibly flattering. I got a message via my other website TransLife.net regarding a facebook page. I took a look and at first thought I was looking at a picture that's in my profile. I sent a reply that was pretty innocuous. Then I took another look and realized it was a fan page that someone had created for me. I was shocked and amazed. Sure, it's just a facebook page, but still, it's flattering nonetheless. Plus, facebook is pretty much the social network of record, if there is a record. So, I find it to be an honor to see that. Plus, the fact that someone thought to create that for me...wow. So whoever did that, thanks.
After that happened, suddenly I got adds and messages from a couple people I only had read about in the trans community. Lynn Conway and Andrea James are probably the two big ones. Both have had a huge impact on the transgender community, and to be contacted in some way by both of them is incredible to me. It's an honor to be sure.
OK, on to the topic at hand. I had friends over today for a Lord of the Rings-a-thon, which was a blast. We started at about noon and continued until 10:00 pm. We only got through 2 of the extended edition films. We took time off to make homemade pizzas, which was fantastic. Today was the third day of Kwanzaa, which is Ujima. It is about collective work and responsibility. We recognized this day by sharing in the work to create our food. Some of us shaped and tossed the crust dough. Others of us spiced and prepared the sauce. Others put on the toppings. The rest of us cleaned up. It was wonderful.
The whole day was fun. I got to spend time with good friends, enjoy good food, and good fun. I wish that could happen more often. I think it probably will. I hope so. The exciting thing is that over the next few days, I'll get to do more with friends. Chris called me today and asked if I wanted to ride with him up to my old college stomping grounds for a New Years party. I'm going to, as long as I can get my last bit of freelance work done before Tuesday. So tomorrow is a long work day for me. It's nice though...to have a real relaxing vacation to take my mind off all this frustration at my job and with money.
Anyway, those are my thoughts for tonight. I'm losing my thought process now. So I'll continue tomorrow.
Posted on December 28th 2008, 7:58 am
Oh Igor...how I love thee...only for thine music though. I find the Firebird suite to be so perfect for what I'm going through right now. I went through the whole beginning part. Now I'm going through the middle part of the song in which the firebird rises up to destroy everything. The rebirth of the beauty part will happen in a few months.
So with that, I think I have a plan. We're going to go with a modified plan everything. Here's the plan:
Get a job in the web development field
Set monthly goals for the next year for projects to get done
Write a book over the next year
re-invent jessicajaniuk.com as a professional speaking site
devote my income to paying off what debt I have left
Do some freelance video / keep video as a hobby
After book, produce film
Tomorrow I'll start writing the chapter headings. Then I'm going to break down the chapters into the content I want to discuss in each. We'll go from there. I'm going to attempt to read as much as I can for research purposes. I've done a lot of reading already, but I think I'm going to re-read for note taking purposes. I also need to re-read what I wrote for my research grant too.
Anyway...share your thoughts.
Posted on December 27th 2008, 4:44 am
I have been giving thought to the various roads that lie ahead of me and thought I'd take some time to write them down.
Bankruptcy - Chapter 7
Grad School for gender studies / communication
Find a college that's looking for a teacher
Continue video and web as hobbies
Maybe do some freelance editing during my off months
Pay off debt in 2 years
Freelance video / web
Try to tolerate keeping my current job
Find a new job within the next six months in Web development
move to whichever location I get a job at and live in a small apartment
devote all energies to debt repayment
Freelance video work
web as a hobby
Find a roommate
Gather a team of volunteers
Build up a professional speaking website / portfolio
Start a charity with grant money
Write a book
Get funding for the film and produce it
Keep video and web as a hobby
Buy a camera with grant money for business
write a treatment for the film
Search around at every network television studio and get a job there
move to that location
devote all money to debt repayment or file for bk
ascent the ranks of the studio until I can fund my own startup
File for Chapter 7
break contract for cell phone
Travel the world by hitchhiking
Learn the ways of the Ninja
Return to my home country
Fight Crime as a costumed hero
Do battle with a mad scientist
Retire at age 50 and write a memoir
File for Chap 7
Grad school for chemistry / physics
Design a doomsday machine out of a microwave, tin foil and a banana peel
Battle with myself as a hero from an alternate dimension
Die in the battle laughing maniacally as my plan fails but I infect my alter ego with an incurable virus for extreme flatulence
a mix and match of any of the previous 9 paths
Share your thoughts! Create a path for me that you think would be something I would enjoy and would be fulfilling. Yes I know you're not me, but try anyway. I'd love to see what you come up with.
Posted on December 26th 2008, 1:16 am
I just got home from seeing the Adam Sandler movie, "Bedtime Stories", with my family. Don't worry...we didn't spend a ton of money at the theater. I used to work there, and my brother in law works for both the theater company and the theater for extra cash. So we got in free. The joys of connections.
Anyway, the movie itself was great. It was cute, entertaining, and well written. I wouldn't say it's Mr. Sandler's best film, but it's definitely one of the better ones. Keri Russell is beautiful, as usual, too. Russell Brand wasn't that bad either. I wasn't sure if I'd like him or not.
My bedtime stories were not as great though. Last night my mother informed me that if I moved home, my sister would watch my cats. That means they wouldn't be around me like usual. I love my cats. I know it sounds a bit like I'm a crazy cat lady, but anyone with pets knows that they are a part of the family. I know they'd be well taken care of, but I'm not sure I can do it. It may just be temporary, but still...I don't know.
Because of that, I had bad dreams all night. Three nuclear bombs hit the U.S. in the upper midwest. I know...Milwaukee is such a prime target in real life, but it was a dream. Shut up. They were smaller warheads too. I got away from the first, the second was close enough to maim me, and the third was a 200 megaton that hit Chicago. In my dream I kept calling Jenn to see if she as ok. She didn't answer. Maybe I'm not as over her as I thought. Anyway, I woke up three times, and each time I fell back asleep the dream got worse. That seems to be how my brain interpreted not having my kitties.
So in real life, I'm stuck coming up with other plans. Now I'm thinking maybe I should start applying at places like Epic Systems as a software engineer. Maybe Robert W. Baird might have jobs. Maybe I should just do video freelance and do software engineering full time. Or maybe I should look into careers at as many cable stations I can find. I have a week off now, and I should make as good of use of it as I can.
I'm definitely going to cut together a new demo reel in January. I'm going to make it awesomely fantastic and impressive. I have some great ideas too. I'm going to put together a monthly schedule of goals. By this time next year, I want to have all of those goals met. Don't worry, they'll be realistic. I'm hoping it'll help me focus in.
No matter what, I definitely need to find a new job. I have called a credit counseling and consolidation service recommended by my bank. I filled out an application. So we'll see what happens. With some luck, I'll hear from them this coming week and get started on the plan. It'll be nice to see an end date to my debt instead of this unending money hole I have right now.
Money wise, my dad is saving me 5 dollars a month on an insurance deal. We should have that finalized the first two weeks of January. So, while that's not a lot of money, it helps.
Oh yeah! It's Christmas! Merry Christmas! Happy Hanukkah! Happy Ramadan! Happy Solstice! (Belated) Happy Kwanzaa! And I think that covers all the holidays I know of this time of year. Oh yeah, Happy New Year too. :D
For once, I got a meaningful gift! My little sister was my secret Santa, and she got me a directors chair! It has my name on it too. I'll post the pic as soon as I get back home (I'm writing from my dad's computer). I'm excited about it! My parents also broke the Secret Santa rules and got all of the kids special custom made bowls with engravings on them that are meaningful to all of the kids. It was really nice.
Another random thing that happened...I talked to an old friend from High School the other day. I was watching a show on Hulu. It's the new series titled "The Legend of the Seeker", which is on abc I think. Turns out it's based on a series of books by Terry Goodkind called the Sword of Truth series. I read a good portion of the books about 7 years ago. My friend from high school / college, Missy, also read them. I thought of her and I called her.
Normally when I call her, I get a voicemail. This time she picked up and was surprised to hear from me. We talked for an hour or so and caught up. She's doing well and is in grad school. It was good to talk to her.
As for "the Legend of the Seeker", it's reminiscent of Xena and Hercules. In fact, I think it's produced by the same people. The production quality is pretty good. The writing is a little hokey, and the special effects are sub par for what one would see in other shows nowadays. Still, it's good to see a fantasy series get a fair treatment. I have no idea how its doing in the ratings, but I'm enjoying it so far. It's on Hulu if you want to check it out.
Well, that's the news from Lake Nagawicka for now. Tune in next week and I'll have more. Maybe I'll make an attempt at a podcast! We'll see!