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The theme of today is love. So I'll start my series of blog updates with an update on my love situation.

To start on a sour note, I'm single again. Lindsay and I broke up after two months. Don't feel bad for me, because it's not a big deal. Lindsay and I really felt more like friends than anything. It was mutual and we still talk and hang out and stuff. Of course, I'm really busy and so is she. So we don't hang out all that much, but still...we try. She's the one who brought up the feel of the relationship, and it really made sense. It still pulled at the heartstrings a little, but not like a big breakup would. So I'm off in single world again.

Honestly, I'm really ok with that. I've discovered a lot about myself during that two month span. Namely, I am so used to being single at this point that I'm not sure how comfortable I am in relationships. I think I appreciate the closeness of a relationship once in a while, but that's enough. My friend Rachel threw at me one of those "Women are probably lining up to date you now" lines, but that's not really true. Besides, I don't really have time to be in a relationship right now. So with that, Happy Valentine's day everyone.

Strangely, I'm ok with online relationships. I think they let me know that people out there are interested and care about me, and I think I need that. Though I will admit that I was struggling with some issues while I was dating Lindsay. Namely, I realized that I wasn't all that physically attracted to her. That really bothered me, because I've discovered that as much as I've told myself that personality is the most important and the physical body doesn't matter, I'm wrong. Well...not completely. While personality is still the most important, if physical attraction isn't there, the relationship isn't going to work.

My issue was that I felt superficial because I wasn't attracted to her. I felt chaeuvanistic because my physical attractions lie in the more feminine images of women. I really felt bad about it, and I didn't know what to do. I think she was noticing that there was something going on too. She didn't pry and is a very perceptive girl, and I'm not surprised she decided to discuss the feel of the relationship. We never really clicked in right. Now that I've had time to process things, I understand that I'm not superficial because of this issue. I can't control who I'm attracted to, and there's nothing wrong being attracted to the more feminine image of women. So I'm not a stereotypical lesbian. I think I'm very comfortable with that. And now I know what is "my type".

So that's the moral of the story. Stay tuned tomorrow for "Update 2: something else"

Luv,
Jess

I have been so busy that I've been practically running around like a head with it's chicken cut off.....I think I said that wrong. Anyway, I've been trying to write a post for a month now, and it's just not happened. It's on my list of things to do for tomorrow. I'll do my damnedest to write it and finish it. Stay tuned folks.

Jess

Sorry I have neglected to post an entry recently. I will post an update early this week. Stay Tuned Fans of Jessica Justice!! For she will be back soon...


I love that line. I saw the Producers this weekend when I was at home with my parents. What a great show!! I'm listening to the soundtrack right now. The movie is shot like it's a broadway show. It feels like you're watching a show too. Nathan Lane and Matthew Broderick are amazing. Uma Thurman has never looked better, in my opinion....Damn sexy. Its rare that I see a movie and laugh out loud several times during the show. I plan on seeing it multiple times. It gets a 4.5 out of 5 brownies from me.

Update on my last week or so. I ended my semester pretty well with a 3.25. I'm happy with that considering how busy I was. Three B+s and a B. For not finishing a 10 page research paper that was 20% of my grade, that's not bad at all. My stress is over for now. I have one more semester to go, and it's off to the "real world". This past weekend I actually realized that I'm going to have to start thinking about jobs. I have been in the school mindset for so long that I didn't even think about applying or even looking for my career. So that's on my plate now.

I'm a bit disappointed that I didn't get the internship I wanted. I applied for an internship with the International Television and Radio Society. It would have been in New York City for 9 weeks all expenses paid. There's a lot of competition nationally. I really didn't expect that I would get it, since I know how the system works for these internships. I wish I had had the experience to apply last  year or the year before, because you usually have to reapply for these type of internships. Oh well. I have another one lined up. I go in for a local internship interview a week from Monday. They sound very interested. So, I'm not worried.

My Christmas was good. My family doesn't have a whole lot of money right now. So it was a much much less greedy Christmas for my family, which is exactly what I was hoping for. I've hated Christmas the past few years. It was a very welcome change to have a more heartfelt Christmas. My mother asked me for a list of things I wanted a couple months ago, and all I told her was that I just wanted something thoughtful. So everything was a big surprise, and it was all nice stuff. I put a lot of effort into my presents that I gave my sisters and parents. I spent more than I should by a lot, but they really appreciated what I got for them. That really made me happy. I hope the next few years continue that way.

This New Years is the first time I've ever had something planned to do. I'm not working at the movie theater as I have for years past. This time, Lindsay is having some sort of New Years party. So I'll be at that. I think it's a dress nice party. So that means I need a dress. Unfortunately I don't have one and don't have the money for one. Perhaps I'll find something cheap. We'll see. I don't know. I should probably ask her what the party dress is going to be like so I know for sure.

Let's see...other movie reviews...

I saw King Kong, and wow it was amazing. Peter Jackson is really a genius. That movie is a perfect example of it. My only criticism is that some scenes are a bit overindulged. By that, I mean they run a bit long. For example, the Brontosaurus chase is a bit long, the bug scene is a bit long, and so on. However, I think people will start to take Jack Black a bit more seriously after this film. His character is a tad bit overplayed, but that's actually not his fault. The character is designed that way. He did an excellent job. I was blown away by Kong himself. I knew he was computer generated, but he doesn't look like he is. Some of the ape/dinosaur fight scenes were a bit graphic, not that it bothers me, but I was just surprised to see it. All in all King Kong gets a 4 out of 5 brownies.

I also saw Chronicles of Narnia: the Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe. It was enjoyable, though I didn't find it to be as amazing as people were saying. It was definitely more of a kiddie story. There were some things that were a bit ridiculous...no I'm not talking about the talking animals. I'm speaking more about the character Peter having no skill with a sword as demonstrated earlier in the movie, and then not much later all of a sudden he can push a rather large minotaur out of the way with it and fight in long duels like he's been fighting with a sword for years. Still there was some great imagery. Liam Neeson's voice is awesome for Aslan. The CG was not quite as good as it was for King Kong, but it was still pretty neat.

One of my major criticisms was not of the film, but of the Christian population's comments about the film. I almost lost all interest in seeing this film because people were calling it a Christian film due to C.S. Lewis many Christian writings. Yes, there are some of those themes present, but overall I'd say it wasn't. There were some strong pagan images as well. One main example is the appearance of Father Christmas, aka Santa. Complete with sleigh, reindeer, red coat, and bag-o-gifts, his character is unmistakable. Most Christians may think of Santa as a Christian figure, but he's really not. Christmas is on Dec. 25th not because of Jesus' birth, but because of the Pagan celebration of the great feast. Anyway, I had lost interest in seeing the film because the idea of it being a Christian film really took away from the pure enjoyment of it for me. Instead I went in with all these preconceptions and expectations. I probably liked it less because of that, not because I'm anti-Christian, but because I'd rather watch a story for the story without the preconceived messages. So...leaving it at that, I give it a rating of 3 out of 5 brownies. It was an enjoyable film, but it just didn't have enough substance to fill me up. It actually reminded me of the Harry Potter films in that respect... Go ahead...throw your tomatoes at me. I'm entitled to my opinion though.

My book is getting started. I have several chapter titles in mind. I'm trying to set up the outline for it so I have a backbone to work off of. I'm going to be doing a lot of research for this book. I think I may set up a large survey on this site to see what kind of responses I get. I may even poll people at random places to see what they may say. If you're interested in helping with it, let me know. We'll set something up. Anyway, I'm excited to get started on it.

On the job front, there are two open positions in the Computer department here at the University I go to. I am likely to apply for at least one of them. That'd get me some nice state benefits if I got the job. We'll also see what happens with the TV station. There may end up being a position created for me. I'm not sure there. We'll see what develops over the next semester.

Uh...I think that's it. It's not as big of a post this time as some of my others, but it's still pretty long. Sorry...I really should update more often. Oh well. Talk to all you wonderful people soon. :)

Luv,
Jess

I'm about to go to bed now that I've finished my last paper. I wanted to post a couple pictures of my girlfriend and also of Flapjack...my cat. :)

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Here's Lindsay and Me from Sunday night.

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And here's Flapjack being flappy. Scratch him on one side and he'll eventually flop over to the other side. He loves me. :) OK off to bed.

Luv,
Jess