Posted on September 16th 2009, 4:58 am
I've had a Batman infusion the past few weeks. Batman: Arkham Asylum was released for all the video game systems out there, and I got a copy. I've been grappling around the Gotham nut house kicking some crazy ass for the past week or so. What a fun game! I'm a bit addicted...and as usual...quite the nerd. Ha!
So...what's new with me. Well, today I became an official card carrying member of the LGBT community center of the Chippewa Valley. I also turned in my application to be a member of the board. I've been feeling the need to be doing more. I've stopped freelance, and that's been great. I'm no longer feeling the pressure of having deadlines and getting projects done during my nights. Instead I'm free to do what I want. Now I can start to do more for the community...well...more than I already do.
I ran into a friend at the center, and she informed me that the youth group I used to facilitate for is starting up again. She asked me if I'd be willing to facilitate again. She flat out told me I'd be perfect. I was excited about the idea, and I can honestly say I've missed doing it. At the same time, I found myself thinking about some of the things I've been working on lately. One of those things is that I have an ego and am a bit self centered. To me that seems so contraditctory to her statement of me being perfect for it. At the same time, I'm feeling that this is just what I need. I need to spend time listening to others and forgetting about my own problems. So yeah, I'm all about it. PLUS, she knows how to do metalworking. Upon me sharing that I want to learn, she was all about teaching me. I'd say that's a win win right there.
Speaking of personal issues to work through, yesterday I discovered another facet of myself that I'm quite ashamed of. I'm a jealous person. I came home from a great day at work. I seriously felt energized and excited about my job...so much so that I almost forgot to go home. When I got home, I saw my roommate's boy's car in the driveway. Two things ran through my head, one being how annoying I thought he was the last time I hung out with him, and two...that I was so jealous of Chris for having a life.
That's being harsh. I just talked about running for the board and so on. So clearly I have a life, but since I've moved back here, I haven't really connected with a lot of people. That's my own fault, and besides, it takes time. Chris has been here for years, and of course he has plenty of people to do stuff with. I felt lonely and so jealous that I even got angry at stupid things that happened. I didn't even realize why I was upset until later in the evening. When I did, I was so ashamed of myself that I almost broke down in tears right then.
Chris and his boy were not actually home right away, and when they did get home, I holed up in the family room and watched some Dark Knight special features to distract myself. I didn't talk to Chris much more than a little bit. He was willing to give me space, which I appreciate. I ended up letting my feelings out later on in the evening after Chris went to sleep.
Today I told Chris how I felt and how ashamed I was. He shared with me stories of his own experiences with jealousy and his similar feelings of shame. It helped a lot to hear that and to know that we both have the same issue. I know it'll get better too. After going to the community center today, and connecting with some great people, I already feel so much better. I think now that I know what's going on, I'll be able to cope with it easier.
Enough of this down talk! Let's talk about something fun and exciting. :) Friday night I went to the LGBT Community Center (again...wait...it was the first time going...ah whatever). I had gone to pick up a board application, and I had no intention of staying long. My friend Anne was there, and we started chatting. It was fun. Then, a pretty lady walked in that I'd never seen before. She joined the conversation and it was a lot of fun. Quickly the time disappeared, and it was 10:00...when the center was closing for the night. Anne, the lovely lady, and I decided to go to Scooters, the local gay bar.
We talked at Scooters for a while, and after about 45 minutes, Anne decided to head home. This pretty lady and I chatted for a while, one of her friends showed up, and it was about quarter to one in the morning when we all decided to head out. Time flies when you're having fun. She and I exchanged numbers, and I'm sure we'll talk or go to coffee soon. What a crazy, random happenstance meeting someone like that. I'm all about it.
In other news, I've been thinking a lot about Genderverse, the podcast, and where I'd like to go with my activism. I've been considering the idea of making Genderverse a kind of gender news / commentary portal that I write articles for and serve as editor. I think it'd be neat to critique the media, entertainment industry, and so on, in a fun and humorous way. I think it'd be a great way to engage the world in talking about gender. Now...do I write software for it or use something like Wordpress? That one I haven't figured out yet. I'm definitely going to need a content management system, and I don't want to use Joomla or other ones out there. If you have suggestions, please share them. I'd appreciate it.
I also sat down with Audrey, my favorite college professor, and we discussed a few things. I'll be speaking in her class again, much like I did when I was in college. I also asked her to help me with the process of writing my book. I showed her the outline I'm working on, and she liked it. It needs a bit of revising and organizing, which I need to sit down and spend some time with, but otherwise, it's coming along well. That's good to hear. She is excited to see where it goes, as am I.
I went to the Ren Faire about two weeks back. It was a blast. I spent a little too much money, but all in all, I did stay mostly in my budget. I'm proud of that. I've been sticking to it every since I started using Mint.com (and I'm a little bit upset that Intuit is buying that company cause I know they're going to ruin it). Anyway, I dressed in the same dress I wore to the SCA event about 10 months ago. You can see photos of it if you go back in the blog archives. I also put on elf ears. As usual, if you want attention at the Ren Faire, wear elf ears. I had so many people staring, asking questions, and taking photos. The creepiest one was an older bald man asking to chew on them. Aside from that, it was great. I always love the Ren Faire.
Speaking of the Faire, I found out the Chippewa Falls Ren Faire will be back up and running next year. I'm really happy to hear that. I'm considering volunteering. I'd love to participate more in such a fun event. Then I'd get to be the creepy person working at the faire. Hehe. I may actually make a new dress for it. I have plenty of time though...doesn't start til next summer.
So...question of the blog: What stories do you have of jealousy in your life?
Posted on August 30th 2009, 6:48 am
I've had a crazy busy few weeks with a lot of things going on. I'm assuming that this post will be another 1000 plus word post. You'd be disappointed if that wasn't the case, right?
We'll start by jumping back a few weeks. I went to my former coworker's wedding a couple weeks ago. It was in the Milwaukee area, and I knew there would be some discomfort involved. I knew I'd see my former boss. I was right too. It was a bit awkward, but I made it through ok. I don't know if I mentioned, but the entirety of the old department was shut down. So I'm literally the only person in the old department with a job now. Amazing how things change.
Anyway, the wedding was lovely, and it went smooth as silk. It was hot as hell outside, and I was thankful everything was indoors. I'm really proud of Ben and Sarah. They really are two geeks in a pod. I managed to successfully avoid dancing, as well as avoid my former boss most of the night. The big plus was that I made some new friends. I was put at the Sci Fi geek table, and that ended up being a great experience. I connected really well with the group at the table. In fact, we connected so well that I was invited to hang with them afterwards. I ended up heading to their hotel where we chatted until around 11:30 in the evening. If any of you are reading this, it was awesome hanging and getting to know you!
The rest of the weekend disappeared quickly. My parents wanted me to go get some shoes and a car battery, which was not really on my priority list, but whatever. It's always fun to shop with my mother. The drive back to Chippewa was a smooth one. It was cooler, so the lack of A/C in my car wasn't a huge suck fest. It was a good weekend overall.
One of the best experiences I have every time I visit my parents are the morning chats at the breakfast table. After we eat, it's usually coffee and conversation. This particular day my parents brought up the health care debate, and I was witness to them being profoundly impacted by the fear mongering that Fox News has perpetuated. My dad was all up in arms about death panels, and both my parents were all like "It's written in the bill". I had to explain what the actual truth was about the situation, that there were no death panels written, and that there was no solid bill yet. Nothing had been decided. It was a lively conversation to be sure. The scary thing was listening to my father call Obama a Nazi. I don't think he understands where that comes from. As Jon Stewart has put it, I don't think Nazi's were ever known for their health care reform plans. This calling this President a nazi is about as ridiculous as they come. Anyway, I just thought that was interesting. It just really surprises me that my parents are so prone to what they've been told by the media vs what's actually true. Does anyone do their research about the issues anymore?
Last weekend was my 10 year high school reunion, and it was an interesting experience. I had no intention of missing the reunion. Chris was willing to be my date for the event. So we headed down on Friday. It took place on Saturday, the 22nd of August at Nagawaukee Park in Delafield. We got there about 1:00 in the afternoon.
It wasn't what people usually picture for reunions. It took place outside at a park pavilion instead of a bar. We had a pig roast, which was quite delicious. There weren't a ton of people there. My graduating class had about 240 people in it. About 40 people came to the reunion. That included spouses and dates. So turnout was low, but from what I hear, that's average for a reunion.
Arriving was the awkward part...everyone wondering who I was at first. The organizers knew, and they gave me a big hug. I think no one really knew what to say to me. I didn't really know what to say back. So there was a lot of avoiding going on at first, but once everyone realized I don't bite, there were no problems.
It was actually quite a bit of fun. I reconnected with a lot of people, and most of them were the people I didn't expect to connect with. There were competition things going on, none of which applied to me. They were things like longest marriage, most kids, most recent kid, shortest and longest distance travelled, etc. I would have put my name down for distance, but before I got there, I was already beaten. As a joke, I decided to put my name down for "Looks most like high school photo". :)
Everyone seemed to think that Chris went to high school with them. He apparently looked very familiar. He also said that some of the people looked familiar too. Not sure why that was, but whatever. I ended up taking photos at the suggestion of one of my classmates. They turned out nice too.
The awards were given out later in the evening after dinner. The prizes were really funny. The person with the most kids got a box of condoms. The person that traveled the most got a travel kit, and the person that traveled the shortest also got a travel kit with the stipulation that they had to get out of town. Ha! Then came the award for looks most like the photo from high school. The organizers said that they should have taken a vote, but decided to go the other way. I won! Everyone cheered. It was great.
I guess that moment says a lot about how well I was received by my former classmates. What a great time. I'm so glad I went. Makes me a little nostalgic and a little sad though. I feel like this was the first time they ever got to really meet me despite all that time in grade school. I had a blast hanging with them, and it makes me wonder what things would have been like had I been my true self in high school. Would I have made more friends, been more a part of the "popular crowd"? Maybe it's not worth dwelling on the coulda, woulda, shouldas. Regardless, I'll never forget my high school reunion. Thanks to everyone for making it wonderful.
Chris has found a relationship. It's not with the guy I wrote about in past posts either. It was a random date that turned into something wonderful. It's with an old flame, and I'm really happy for him.
No surprise, it makes me think about my love life...or my lack of one. It's almost September, which means in a couple more months, I'll have been single for a year. I know that deep down, I'm craving for another relationship, but my rational brain is telling me otherwise.
If you didn't notice in my last post, I've got a lot of crap I'm working on right now. I feel like in a lot of ways, I am really not ready for anything in the love area. Heck, I don't even go out with friends that often, let alone with a love interest. It's taking a lot of energy to work on these issues, and that's energy I don't know if I can continue putting into it if I was also dating someone.
That being said...damn it's hard to watch Chris be so happy and go off with his new boy. I'm suffering from empty nest tonight, and while it's nice to have the house to myself, I actually feel more alone tonight than I have in a while. It would be nice to have someone to be close to myself. I'm on Yahoo Personals, but unfortunately all the responses I've been getting are from people that live at a minimum of 2 hours away. Maybe it's worth the drive...
This loneliness combined with my focus at my job has had me listening to a lot of music lately. I've had a song stuck in my head. It was written by James Newton Howard, a favorite of mine, for the film "Lady in the Water" and is entiteled "The Great Eatlon". It's a beautiful piece that gives me chills when I listen to it. Then towards the end, the tone changes, and I get tears. It's beautiful. I've been playing it a lot...so much that it's stuck in my head. If you get a chance, listen to it.
Tomorrow I have plans to have my good friend Audrey over for dinner. I've been terrible on following up on the plans because this week just disappeared. So hopefully those plans are still on. We were going to discuss plans to have me lecture to her class as well as my book outline. I've asked her for assistance in writing the book. I think it's the right time. She's agreed to help out as much as she can. Here's hoping it moves forward successfully.
Oh, I have to mention that in my previous post, I said that I'm presenting a forum on October 22nd. That's actually incorrect. It's going to be on October 20th, which is a Tuesday. If you're in the Chippewa Valley, you should come.
Questions of the blog: What was your high school reunion like OR do you look forward to your reunion?
Posted on August 10th 2009, 5:27 am
Almost 9 months ago now, my ex girlfriend broke up with me and served me a nice, cold dish of humble pie. I hadn't been blogging much prior to that for at least a year, and what she told me really prompted me to start again. She told me I had ego issues. She was right. Since then, I've been doing what I can to work on that. I'm proud to say things have gotten better, but we're always a work in progress, right? This weekend, I finally admitted to myself that I have a few other issues. I'm selfish and I always have to be right about everything.
I'm a perfectionist, and while some may value that, I'm starting not to. That perfectionism plays into the whole "have to be right all the time" issue. I have this inner need that comes out in a debate that I have to show the other person that my logic is right. The worst is that it comes into play in the stupidest of arguments. Chris and I will have debates over silly things like how to refer to this coming weekend versus next weekend. It's stuff not worth being pushy about or even wasting the time to debate it. Yet, something inside me pushes on. I think this need to be right plays into the ego / talk down to people issue that Jenn broke up with me over. Maybe my ego isn't as big as she thought...I just have to be right.
As far as my being selfish goes...it's something I've been aware of for a long time, but I've been in denial of. It came to a point this weekend when Chris asked me if I was ok with us watching a friend's daughter for a few hours. I said ok at first, but as time passed, I realized that my Saturday was now no longer mine. I had wanted no responsibility this weekend and now I had to be there with this kid. To top it off, I'm not much for babysitting to begin with. I find myself awkward around children. I'm just not used to them. I was awkward around cats before I adopted Meat. Anyway, so what it comes down to is I got upset with Chris because he ruined my weekend by offering to help someone else. How dare he? right? As we were fighting, at one point I slapped my hand on my forehead wondering what my problem was. I didn't even know exactly why I was upset. By the time we finished with the argument, I realized I was more mad at myself than I was at Chris. I couldn't believe I was being so selfish. I was so ashamed. I got in my car and drove while I started to cry a bit. I realized I am what I never wanted to be...selfish, egotistical, and a bitch.
After I had that realization during the random driving, I gave Chris a call and apologized. We talked a little and he was understanding as well as forgiving. I'm so very lucky to have such a great friend. I've been using some of my alone time this weekend to really think about things. I interviewed my little sister years ago for the documentary I had intentions of making then. She said that I was selfish and egotistical then. I didn't believe her. I saw her as the selfish one. Now I'm realizing that she was right. I feel I owe her an apology, but at the same time, I'm not sure I'm ready to. I've only just allowed myself to become aware of the issue. Maybe I should spend some time working on the issues first. Then agian, maybe now is the best time. I don't know.
So, a bit of personal growth for me this weekend. These realizations told me a lot. It tells me I'm unhappy with myself. I see a pretty face in the mirror, but I know the person underneath isn't who I want to be. The good news is that with time, patience, and work, I know I can better myself. The first step is admitting you have a problem. So wish me luck in solving it. Chris said to me that it's unfortunate because now's when I should be happy. I just got settled in at a new location with a brand new, fantastic job. Self struggle can happen at even the best of times, I guess.
Anyway, enough of this depressing talk, let's talk about what else is going on. Tonight I visited the LGBT Community Center of the Chippewa Valley. They had a board meeting tonight, and in a month or two, they'll be voting for new board members. I'm going to run for membership of the board. I really want to get actively involved in the community again, and this just seems like the right path for that. It's a great resource, and I think I can make a difference there. I have skills that, from what it sounds, the center could really use right now. They were happy to see me. I know some of the members of the board from college. So, it's nice to be among friends.
On the front of giving back to the community, I was also asked to present a forum at UW Eau Claire on October 22nd. It'll probably run 2 hours or so. It'll be about trans issues, of course. Specifically, they want me to relate the subject matter to my experiences at the University. So it should be fun. If you're going to be in the area, and you've never heard me speak, come. It'll be a fun time. It may not be the most exciting thing to do on a Tuesday night, but it'll still be fun.
To add to all of that, my good friend at the University, Professor Fessler, has already asked me if I'd like to lecture her Monday night class at some point this fall. Sounds like I'll be a regular fixture in the syllabus. That's always exciting. I miss speaking in her classes. She always has such an interesting and energetic group of students. I don't think I've ever had a disappointing group. I look forward to it.
There was a recent book published here in the Eau Claire area. It was written by two parents with two gay children, and apparently it's a wonderful read. The two authors have been doing a lot of book signings and are planning on doing a few forums too. So it's exciting to have them here in this area and benefiting the world. They've had me thinking about the book I've wanted to write for years. I'm strongly considering talking to my Professor friend, and several others, about helping me get my book underway. I have my outline, it's just got to move on from there. I'll bring it up next time I talk to her.
Let's see...what else is new. Last weekend I helped my friend Adam move across town...in Madison, which is three hours away. I also helped my friend Leia move as well. It was a tiring weekend. Then this weekend, Chris and I decided to move a bunch of stuff around in our house. The guest room is now a guest room / den. Since I'm not doing freelance anymore, there's no need for a dedicated office. So we've moved the futon up and moved my iMac as well. Now we can relax and watch netflix or Hulu from a comfy futon. We also have an old school analog TV with a VCR (remember those?) and a super Nintendo. We're considering putting a Dreamcast there too. So, it's exciting. In fact, I'm in the Den right now typing this blog entry.
I got my new Android phone that was burning a hole in my pocket. That has been a lot of fun. So far, it hasn't disappointed at all. I'm loving it. I'm glad I didn't switch providers just for the iPhone. I'm actually considering being even more nerdy and developing an app or two for the phone. I think it'd be hilarious to have a rotary phone dialer on there. Plus, my friend Tracy's last name is Apps. I think it'd be so much fun to develop two apps called "Tracy". That way there would be the "Tracy" Apps. Seriously though, I do want to develop something for the phone. I just need a solid idea, other than the rotary dialer. What do you think I should develop?
Chris and I held "bad movie night" just over a week ago. We watched Street Fighter: the Legend of Chun Li and Dragonball: Evolution. I've seen Dragonball before, and I have to say, it has really grown on me. It's not nearly as bad as I remember it. Don't get me wrong, it's not a great movie by any means, but it's got a coherent story, captures the spirit of the anime, and is actually pretty fun to watch. Street Fighter, however, was complete garbage. There was no real redeeming factor to the film at all. The plot is laughably bad and has no real solid footing at all. The acting is gag-able. The effects are cheezy, fighting is bad, and really...there's no reason to see the film unless you want to make fun of it. If you truly want to watch a terrible film, see it. It's that bad. We had a blast watching it.
The job is still going exceedingly well. I love it so far. I'm starting to feel like I fit in, and it's not quite feeling like I'm just filling in for someone for a few weeks. This move was certainly a great thing. Now that I have a job and am feeling a bit of security, I was able to fix my car too. So, while the air conditioning is still broken, at least the tie rod is not going to fail on me while driving.
There's a lot happening in this post, but the question of the post is easy: What was your experience getting a slice of humble pie?
Posted on July 21st 2009, 4:24 am
I guess I should begin this post with a simple update on the news from the last post. I got the results from the hearing. It was resolved in the company's favor, but I didn't have to repay anything. In the end it was moot due to the new job scenario, but still...I would have preferred to win. I understand why the judge ruled the way that it was ruled. I mentioned the unfairness built into the situation due to my being unemployed and my opponent being a large corporation with a legal department. I also made a point not to talk about my being taken advantage of at my former employer. I didn't want to seem like a huge whiner. I know I did the right thing, and I stood up for it. I will always have my dignity there. I have no respect for my former employer though. I will forever use them as a baseline for how to mistreat employees. I was always told that you hate your first job or that your first job is always shit. Now I know that from experience. All that being said...the case is closed. I'm officially done with them. Time to move on and never look back.
On to brighter and happier subjects. I have a job. As of Thursday, I am officially full time employed. I love what I do and I love who I work for. I'm a developer now, and I still get opportunities for video work. I really like my coworkers, and so far, I've felt stimulated and challenged by my work on a daily basis. I enjoy going in, and I don't feel like I have to rush out the door at the end of the day. It's wonderful, and I have faith that it will stay that way. Life is good. Wow...haven't said that in a long time, right?
In other news, this past Wednesday was Scarlet's birthday. Scarlet is my orange kitty. Yes, I know...I'm writing about my cat. I'm lame. Still, I've never had a pet from kitty or puppy age before. So it's a new and fun experience. Bonding with a kitten is so different than bonding with a grown adult kitty. So I had to celebrate a little bit. We have so many catnip toys now. Plus, I stocked up on lasers and treats too. No party hats...this time. Maybe next year. :)
In other cat news, we've solved the Serenity peeing problem. I did a little digging...no pun intended...and discovered that some declawed cats have sensitive paws. It may actually hurt her to dig her paws into the standard kitty litter. She may be associating pain with using the box. So instead of a protest, like we initially thought, it could be a physical thing. Serenity was declawed about the age of 2, and it may not have been done well. We picked up some Yesterday's News litter, which is recommended for cats that have just been declawed. As soon as we put that out, she started using it all the time. So it turns out that it probably was the pain issue. It's been over a week now, and so far so good. No peeing on the floor anymore. I have faith things will stay that way.
I hate to say it, but the idea of getting a new phone has been burning a hole in my pocket. I've been going back and forth between iPhone and Android phone for a while. I finally decided. It came down to financial reasons. To get an iPhone, I'd have to break contract on two lines with T-Mobile before I'd even be getting the iPhone itself. So we'd be looking at like...700 bycks. Plus, I really like my T-Mo plan. So, I opted for the new myTouch 3G which comes out in August about the time 3G speed rolls out in my area. I'm excited and am geeking out about it a bit. Sorry if I blab on too much about it. Oh look at that, I already have...again...sorry.
Jumping back in time just over a week...my parents came up to visit. On top of that, Chris' parents also came up to visit. It was one full weekend, let me tell ya. My mother is allergic to cats. So my parents stayed at a hotel down the street. Chris' parents stayed here in the house. Both pairs of parents wanted to go to the Northern Wisconsin State Fair, which just so happens to take place in my current town.
Now, the Official State Fair takes place in West Allis, WI, which is near Miller Park in Milwaukee. It goes on for 10 days and has a pretty large permanent grounds. My family figured that since the Northern Wisconsin one also bears the state fair name, it was going to be just as big. That's not actually the case. As it happens, the NWSF is about the size of a decent sized county fair. I found out about this maybe two days before they came. So I had to come up with other things to do since we likely wouldn't spend the whole time at the fair.
Instead we went to Irvine Park, which is adjacent to the fair grounds. It's also home to the local zoo. That turned out to be a blast. While the park isn't as large as the Milwaukee Zoo, it does a lot of things right with the open, large natural habitats and beautiful surroundings. It felt like a state park, and since my family spent a lot of time camping during my youth, we felt like we were at home. My parents loved it. The fair was enjoyable, but it didn't compare to Irvine Park.
The weekend was a success. My parents had a blast. So did Chris' parents. I know mine are excited to come and visit again. That makes me thrilled. :) They headed home Sunday morning. I spent the rest of Sunday shopping for work clothes. All in all, it was a very successful weekend. It was also a very draining one. I slept like a rock Sunday night.
Jumping forward to this past weekend...it was a much more relaxing one. We went to see two movies. We saw Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince on Saturday and Angels and Demons in the budget theater on Sunday. I have to say...going to movies in the theater is less and less appealing these days. In the Harry Potter showing, there was a blown subwoofer, the projector lens was dirty...enough that it was terribly distracting, and there was an infant in a carrier in the theater. Why do people bring their 3 month old children to movies that could easily make them cry and ruin the movie for the rest of the film goers? I never understood that.
Harry Potter was great. It was very dramatic. Less magic...more character. It was a little anti-climactic due to the lack of a giant magic fight, but nevertheless, I enjoyed it. Angels and Demons was ok. The book was better. The audio was terrible at the budget. The center channel was so quiet that we couldn't hear most of the first part of the film. I really think seeing movies at home is much better nowadays.
I've been thinking about how I'm going to make the Wonder Woman costume as a whole. I've been looking for patterns that might work for it. I'm thinking a corset design might work to get started. I'm not sure otherwise. In the meantime, to practice my sewing skills, I bought a pattern for a cloak. I've always wanted a pretty velvet hooded cloak. Now I'm going to make one. It should be fun.
I'm really starting to realize how jaded I am about my love life. I'm starting to feel so frustrated that I'm actually getting a little angry about it. I'm so sick of being attracted to straight women. I walked past a beautiful woman today and found myself just grumbling. My finding love seems quite impossible. None of it has helped my self esteem. I've been kind of at a low point because of it. I feel ugly, like unwanted trash. I think it's making my mood overall go downhill. I've been a bit bitchy lately, and I know Chris isn't such a fan of me when I get like that. I wonder how long it'll be before I heal from all of this.
To help with that, I picked up some Valerian Root. It comes from the planet Valeris...no it doesn't, but it sure sounds like something from Star Trek, doesn't it? It's supposed to help with anxiety, insomnia, and even help with IBS. So I get benefit with at least two problems at once. I figure maybe anxiety reduction might help me past the bitchiness. We'll see.
Lastly, before I end this 1500 word monster of a post, I've decided to start asking a question of the blog each post. I think it'll be fun. This post's question is: what's the worst job experience you've ever had?
I look forward to hearing all of your stories in the comments. Thanks for reading!
Posted on July 9th 2009, 4:58 am
Things are starting to fall into place for me. This move has certainly proven to be a very good decision despite seeming kind of risky at the time. I'm happier. I'm more comfortable. I don't worry as much, and life just feels a bit easier. With the prospect of this job, things are looking to be nice indeed.
The new job is going well. I should say job prospect. I'm going through a week of trial work before I get offered anything. So I'm not officially hired yet. I'm enjoying the work that I'm doing. I'm finding it simultaneously fun and challenging. So far, each day has forced me to really use my logical reasoning. I'm starting to get used to the people there, but I think that'll take a bit yet. So far, everyone seems nice though. I'm keeping my hopes high.
On the same topic, I finally finished all the freebie freelance I had on my plate. Only I can be unemployed and overwork myself. I've decided that really with the prospect of working full time again, I'm not really going to seek out any more work on the side. I want my free time to be just that...free. If I get bored, I will consider doing some fun projects here and there. Lord knows I have ideas. I'd much rather have fun doing videos for my own fulfillment than someone else's anyway.
Let's see...the 4th of July was this past weekend. Chris and I drove down to Milwaukee to see the fireworks. Those actually take place on the 3rd instead of the 4th so that local communities can have their celebrations on the 4th. The July 3rd fireworks are a family tradition. I think my family has gone to see them every year since I was alive. The only time we missed them was a couple of years ago when it was raining out.
Anyway, I have to say, I'm starting to get a little burnt out on the fireworks show. It was an hour long, which as Chris put it, was a half hour of overkill. There came a point several times in the show where I found myself totally daydreaming. I came out of the daydream and was thinking...shit...are these still going off?!! We did get distracted by an inner city guy that decided to just stand right in front of the group of us watching the show. He started scratching his butt, dumped out a beer, was spitting on the ground right by me...it was pretty gross. Then he and his friends decided to start talking about their sex lives and how they "upgraded". They were using a lot of graphic terminology all while not more than six feet away is a 4 year old boy with his family. Eventually, Sylvia got sick of staring through the guy that she got up and said something to the group of them. They started being a little more courteous after that. Sylvia has no fear. That's for sure.
I suppose none of you know who Sylvia is. Sylvia is a good friend of Chris' from college before he went to UWEC with me. She got married about 5 years ago and moved to Australia with her husband. She recently moved back to the U.S. and her husband is coming too in the next couple months. This was the first time I had seen her in about....6 years. What's more...she may end up in the Twin Cities, which is near enough to hang out frequently. So we'll see. Regardless, it was great to see her.
This coming weekend should be interesting. The Northern Wisconsin State Fair is happening here in Chippewa Falls. Both my parents and Chris' parents are coming up to go to it. Chris' parents will be staying with us. My parents are staying in a hotel since my mother is allergic to the cats. Our parents have only met once, I believe...maybe twice. So, it'll be a strange weekend.
Chris bought a bike this week. I helped him pick it out over the past week. He got a nice one, a Trek 4300. Now I find myself wanting a new bike too. I have a pretty decent one myself. It's a Trek 820 Aluminum. It's also close to 10 years old. It's been all over the state and served me very well when I was in college. I may trade it in to get a nice new 4400 or something. We'll see.
So Chris and I have been going on bike rides now. Yesterday we were biking around the area of our house and found a park. We stopped and made use of the teeter totter. I went down the old school metal slide, and we also swung on the swings too. It was just like we were 8 years old again. We had a lot of fun! I now remember why those parks were so much fun as a kid.
A day later...I was coming home from an electrolysis appointment, and Chris gives me a call. He was apparently out on a bike ride with a friend and wiped out really badly. The bike was slightly damaged and he was pretty scraped up. Figures...brand new 450 dollar bike gets damaged not two days since purchase. Chris is going to be just fine. No broken bones or anything. His leg will have a nasty bruise though.
This morning was a painful experience. The unemployment hearing took place and let me tell you, I am so glad I don't participate in legal proceedings very often. I was nervous. I am not a lawyer, and of course, my former employer had a lawyer. These things are so skewed because it's obvious the unemployed party is not going to have the money to hire legal counsel. Regardless, I made my case, and I will get the results in a week.
It has come to my attention recently that I have quite a few regular readers. I don't keep track with any sort of software of how many people visit this blog or view the rss feed. On top of that the entries are syndicated into facebook on both my personal page and my fan page. So it has the potential to be seen by quite a few people.
I talked to a couple friends of mine recently, Dan and @jennaddenda (Jenn Turner of Bucketworks), and both of them made mention of reading my blog. It just took me by surprise. I asked Dan why he reads, and he told me that he finds my life fascinating since it's so different from his. I took a look at my statistics from my web host, media temple, and found that I've been getting roughly 1200 pageviews a week, and that's just the main blog landing page. That makes me feel like writing this blog has been worth it. I'd just like to say thanks to all of you that read my musings on life. If you'd be willing to share, I'd love to hear what brings you to my blog and why you keep revisiting it. Is it my writing? is my life just that fascinating? is it just a nice time waster? do you like to laugh at my nerdiness? is it because I write regularly? I'm just curious and would love to hear what y'all have to say.
I'm off for now. Have a lovely night!