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Today I worked a combined total of 13 hours. And they asked me to come in early tomorrow too. So I'm dead tired. I specifically asked for part time hours for this very reason, but for some reason, they've given me full time hours anyway. I dislike them. If it shows up like that the schedule after the one they just posted, I'm going to complain. It sucks though, cause now I can't go to the fireworks with my parents...any of them. There are two main ones we go to. I got scheduled through both of them. This summer sucks so much. I'm working all the friggin time. My friends are either living in some other town or they are in some serious relationship in which they spend 100% of their time with their significant other, and their friends don't exist. Makes me feel both loved and bored. I want school to start again. Anyway, time for sleep. Good Night.

Luv,

Jessica

This weekend was weird. Yesterday was my sister's graduation party. We had tons of family over. Everyone was so nice to me. I have a great family when it comes to support. My sister was even nice to me for the day. That in itself was a miracle. I played catch with her and her boyfriend. It was nice. The food was excellent too. My family really knows how to cook. The whole day was nice.

Sunday proved my theory. It's very close to Murphy's Law. Basically, if you have a really good day, the following day or a day in the near future will be crap. Or, the other way around. It's like a luck wake. You drag the bad/good Karma behind you, and eventually it catches up. That was today. This was a day where my emotions were toyed with, my patience tested, my sanity on the edge, and by the end of it, I was so sick of hearing an argumentative tone that I felt like I wanted to puke.

There was one good thing that happened today, and that was seeing 'Bruce Almighty." It was a great reminder of what I believe in and such. I enjoyed the story. It reinforces my long time feelings that God will speak through us in any way necessary. We just have to look for it. I've neglected my faith lately, and it's because I had lost faith in God's people. Now, I haven't gained much in the faith in his people, but my prior faith in him is there again. And that's a good thing. I feel better I guess.

I did have a thought about religion today though. It's funny to me how religions are. There are thousands of different religions out there. Buddhists, Christians, Jews, Islamics, Shinto, American Indian, etc. There are only a small few of all those religions that are open to other possibilities. Almost every single one of them thinks they have the right idea and all the other religions are wrong. We are all so egotistical, and yet, when you really think about it.....do any of us really have any clue? That really gets me I guess. I mean, with that in mind, where do we get off telling others what is right and what is wrong? It wouldn't surprise me if we are all completely wrong. I guess I can wait and see. Just food for thought I guess.

With that, I'm out of here. Bye.

Luv,

Jess

Well, I finally got the live diaries working. However, there are some formatting issues I still need to take care of. That'll happen sometime in the next week hopefully. I may need to call in some help on that one. Otherwise I may need to rework the whole thing, which I don't really want to do. So, we'll see what happens. But if I don't get to sleep, I'm going to hate myself in the morning when I have to get up for work. Actually, I'll probably hate myself for not going to bed about three hours ago anyway. But no sense in making it worse. I'll write soon.

Luv,

Jessica

Well, my first day of hormones is done. It was a very uneventful day. In fact, I don't even feel any different. I don't know if that's common, but that's how it was. The only difference I felt was a headache through most of the day, which wore off towards the later hours. I never got emotional or moody. I don't know if it'll come in the next few days, but I'll find out. I don't know why, but I guess I actually want to get moody and emotional. I think it would be a sign that the hormones are there. All I can really do is wait and see. I'm not on Spironolactone yet, so my body has both estrogen and testosterone in my system. I don't know how that affects things. I'll be sure to write if anything happens. Time for sleep.

Luv,

Jessica

I GOT APPROVED!!!!!!!!

I start on estrogen tomorrow morning. I'm so excited. Apparently it was a completely unanimous vote 'yes'. Why did I even doubt? The hard part is over. Now I can relax for a while. I'll write about how these next couple days go. I know I'm going to be an emotional wreck. It'll be funny. :)

Luv,

Jessica