Posted on April 23rd 2004, 5:42 pm
Yesterday was a day full of irresponsibility. I can't believe all that happened due to kids being childish. The first happened right in the morning. I had laser yesterday. This time it was genital laser. So, with that in mind, I had prescription pain management drugs for it that I can't drive on. My friend Emily was supposed to drive me. She, herself, offered to do it.
I woke her up at 7:00 and then went to pick her up at 8:15. When I got there, she wasn't there. I called her room and her roommate didn't know where she was. She wouldn't answer her cell phone. I drove around campus for 45 minutes looking for her. I called other people...no one knew where she was. I was getting worried. On top of that, now I had to drive home under the influence of Percocet and Xanax.
So I went to my appointment. It was very very painful despite the medications. The laser lady was nice though. She did more than she was supposed to again. I was grateful. On my way home, I spent as much time as I could on the phone. It helped me stay awake. I made it just fine.
When I got back, I found out that one of the secretary/treasurer of the LGBT's friends, who just happens to be a high school student, illegally skipped class to come and participate in our day's awareness week events. Our President kicked her out, and that's with good reason. Our organization can get into deep shit for contributing to delinquecy.
The night before, the secretary/treasurer also brought her cat to a movie we were showing on campus. Pets aren't allowed in the building. Again, the president had to kick the cat out. We could, and did, get into trouble for that. Our group has not gotten good attention in the past week. Awareness week isn't intended to be that way.
Basically, our secretary/treasurer has been a problem overall. She hasn't been doing her job. She comes to meetings really late. She also doesn't come to group events. She's exec staff, so she has a responsibility to be there. We had a talk with her too. I don't think she's running again next year.
During the meeting, Emily called someone's phone and asked if someone called her. When she was informed that everyone was calling her and we were all worried and didn't know where she was, she got all angry and snapped "I just needed a day to myself, ok!" She put my life at risk. I understand the need for a day off, but she could at least have told me. I would have understood and found someone else. What if I had gotten hurt or something? I've lost all my faith in her.
With all that in mind, there was a lot of productive talk last night at the meeting. The president had a talk with the secretary/treasurer about the issues. A lot of ground was covered as far as what to do about high school kids participating. I think things are going to be much improved in the fall.
There was one event this week that was very good though. Wednesday after the breaking the silence rally, we all went to get ice cream. One of the high school kids came with too. While we were all having a good time, this kid just started asking me questions about being trans. The advisor to the high school GSA told me that there had been a student that came out as questioning/trans recently. Given that this student was wearing a skirt, I assume it was him/her.
I did my best to share my feelings and to give advice. I didn't want to push the kid in either direction. My advice was to spend time getting to know who he/she is. Before doing anything involving a transition, you have to know yourself more than anything else. I encouraged him/her to examine his/her emotions. Look deep. I think my advice really helped. Hopefully the student will be helped by what I said. I felt great about that experience.
Hopefully over the next few weeks the maturity level will go up. I doubt it, but I suppose it's possible. Elections are coming up, and I got nominated for President. I'm excited to see where that goes. I better get back to work. Bye everyone.
Posted on April 21st 2004, 3:02 pm
Today is the Day of Silence. It's hard to maintain silence when you work at a helpdesk answering phones. However, I'm managing. Japanese class will be a little rough too. I think things will go well though. Hopefully people will see me and others in our silence. Maybe people will come to the rally too.
I've worked hard to get this week going, but I feel like I didn't do enough. I can't seem to shake that feeling either. I think it's due to the fact that I'm so new to this whole "running and organizing campus organizations" thing. It's my first semester at it, and I'm learning as I go. Next year will definitely be better. I'm proud of what I've done this year too, but I didn't know a lot going into it. I just hope I get more help next year. I was even told by Emily last night that I'm the only real officer in the organization. Everyone sees how much I do. So I guess that's good.
Today is not only a GLB day, it's a trans day too. I think many people in the GLBT community forget that. We are such a minority among minorities. Many people don't even think we really exist. We all need to make use of this day to it's full extent and show everyone who we are and that we're not willing to put up with discrimination either. I'm going to be reading two articles tonight at our rally. Hopefully it wont be raining then.
Wish me luck. It's going to be a rough day I think. I have an exam that I haven't really prepared for at all. I've been too busy with crap. Well, that and the class sucks and is taught so poorly that I don't really care to study for it anyway. I hope my professors next year are better. We'll see I guess. Later.
Posted on April 19th 2004, 11:01 pm
Today is transgender day of my school's LGBT Awareness week. We didn't get advertisements out soon enough. So, no one came to the program at 1:00 that I was supposed to give. That's ok. I need a break anyway. I was asked last night to do an all-residence hall forum on transgendered issues in a few weeks. That should be fun. I hope there are people there that change from the forum.
We had a booth set up on the campus mall. So there was like eight of us sitting there having a great time. We always are laughing and smiling when we're together. I always get a good stomach workout. I even enjoyed the company of a gender queer person who has been very insensitive and bitchy in the past. Our advisor, who is usually not very personable, had a good time. We were just emanating happiness. I hesitate to make the "gay old time" reference.
Aside from that though, my day is going rather dull. Felt dumb in my Japanese class. I just can't keep focused in there. That, and I'm short on sleep. So it didn't help. My professor for my asian history class bitched out a kid in class. It was ridiculous. I really don't like her as a professor and agreed with the student. Attendance shouldn't be mandatory in college. We're paying all this money for it. It really should be our choice.
I have an interview in an hour that I have to be at. A coworker of mine is interviewing me for the news show. The topic is just our awareness week, but still. I should be there on time. I'll write something more exciting later.
Posted on April 18th 2004, 7:01 am
It was our TV station's "All-Nighter" this weekend. It's an event we put on every semester. This time I actually got to stay the whole time. It was fun, though somewhat draining. Last night I slept on the studio floor. The first hour was restless. I also woke up at one point and my whole left leg was asleep. Eventually I gave up and moved to a makeshift couch that was open. After that I got about 4 hours of good sleep.
The worst part was the 3:45 am fire alarm in the building. The studio is in the basement of one of the dorms. On the third or fourth floor, someone decided to have fun with a fire extinguisher. That set the alarms off. So there were about ten station employees standing outside in a huddle waiting for the all clear. It was cold, but kinda fun I guess.
I got to be on air tonight. It was impromtu since the two that were supposed to be on decided to spend time dancing instead. So it was me and one other girl thrown in there. No time to prepare even. It was pretty craptastic, but we got through it. I need on air credit anyway. I never go on air, so I need the experience.
The important news is much more intersting though. I got to meet my new therapist on Thursday since my old one left. He happens to be a female-to-male. I didn't know at first until he told me. Impressive definitely. I never would have known. He and I have been going back and forth with phone messages discussing my SRS approval. He has assured me that my case will be presented to the committee the first week of May. May 6th is the next committee session, otherwise it'd happen sooner. I'm so excited.
The thing I'm not excited about is the genital hair removal I start on Thursday. I just hope the pain med prescription finds it's way to my apartment this time. They apparently sent it last time, and I never got it. I don't think I could handle that laser down there without some sort of pain management. I already have someone to drive me back home. So we're all set there.
On the same topic, I think I just started hair removal hell a week ago. Every week now I go in for some sort of hair removal. Electrolysis has been weekly. Laser has also been frequent. Two weeks ago was my chest, this coming week is the "fun area", and I'm thinking the week after that is my lower back. Lots of money going out, that's for sure. It'll be worth it in the long run. I can't wait to not have to worry about shaving all that much anymore. By this time next year, I hope to be just shaving my legs and armpits. I'm crossing my fingers on that.
Well, I really need to get some sleep. I'm exhausted from the past two days...no...the past week. I'll write again soon. G'night.
Posted on April 14th 2004, 5:45 pm
The presentation went really well. There was a turnout of about 75 people. I was surprised to see that many. The best part of it was that there were people from Human Sexuality classes taking notes. Apparently coming to my presentation was an extra credit assignment for them. That means I reached a group of people that normally wouldn't have come. That's so important.
It was a very smooth presentation in my mind. I was happy with it. I'd say my favorite part of the weekend was making new friends though. There were so many cool people at that school. I miss them now. Lindsay was the girl that invited me down there to speak in the first place. She's really cute too. I avoided saying anything though. That would have made things awkward, and I didn't want that. On top of that, I wasn't there to meet someone. I was there to speak, so I figured I should be responsible. I did tell her when I got back home though. She blushed. That made me smile.
I do have to say that Illinois is not the most exciting state to drive through. It's too flat for my tastes. I like hills and trees, or at least something to look at. It was a long drive on slightly not enough sleep. I needed something to keep me awake. I ended up listening to NPR, when I could find a station, to keep me awake. For me, it's better than music. Music tends to lull me to sleep no matter what kind it is...that's if I am tired already. It's just that it has a beat. NPR was something that kept my mental juices flowing. So it helped. Janet Reno does not have a pleasant voice though.
I ended up missing most of my classes, but at least they were excused. I got congratulations from my professors when I told them about the event. How cool is that? Today I have to make up my Kanjii quiz for japanese. It never ends. I better get to studying. I'm prepared, but I want to be more prepared. I'll see ya later.