The freelance seems to never end.  OK...well it sort of does.  As of today, I got final approval on two 30 second spots I had been editing last week.  The producer and I had gone back and forth on fixes and I think we're both really pleased with how it turned out.  With all this editing work, I feel like I'm starting to feel that creative groove come back slowly.  It's that groove I had when I left college.  Now that I'm shooting and editing all the time, I am just in the moment more.  It feels good.

In other freelance news, I've decided to dump the flash web project.  It's a bit too much for me, and I've been really stressed out about it for a long time now.  I have yet to hear back from the guy I asked to take it over, but I'm sure regardless, it'll all get worked out.   The web is good for me when it's a personal thing that I have passion about, but I have trouble finding my creative drive for a web client.  I think I'm just going to remove it from my freelance offerings unless it's simple.  I'd rather be editing or shooting.

Once I get the final ok on that switch, I'm going to start working on Genderverse.net.  I've got the database structure set, but I haven't felt comfortable donating any time to the project while I've got other responsibilities.  So, hopefully with much of my video work done and the web project off my plate, I can get moving.

I feel bad that I haven't had time to work on my podcast.  I've done nothing but work for the past several weeks, which is a good thing.  It just means I've had to put other things aside, and that included the podcast.  The good news is that I wrote up the rundowns for the next podcast this weekend.  I'll be shooting it this week.  I'm aiming for a two podcast a month release schedule.  I have the next two already blocked out.  Let's hope that schedule works.

I'm doing a photo shoot this weekend.  For once, it's not me taking the photos.  My friend Ken asked me about a year ago if I'd want to do a shoot with him.  It'll be a little different being in front of the camera.  I fully expect to be uncomfortable at first, but I think I'll loosen up and have fun as time passes.  I'm bringing a bunch of fun clothes to wear.  I'll have a whole bunch of fun as well as professional pictures after this.  I think I'll use some of them for this site's design.

This past weekend I got something I really really needed: Down time.  I spent most of my weekend catching up on movie watching and some TV.  I've caught up on all of the Legend of the Seeker episodes out there.  The show has gotten better.  It was good to begin with, but I really like it now.  I also watched "Super Size Me", which has helped me commit to never going to McDonalds again.  I didn't like the place to begin with and rarely went already.  So it won't be hard.  I also watched Chocolat, which was a charming and beautiful film.  The next two on my list are "The Invisible" starring Justin Chatwin, and Chicago with Rene Zellweger.

I feel a little bit of a need to respond to a lot of the comments I got on my last blog post about my voice.  I don't have a bad voice by any means.  I realized recently that if I wanted to, I could sing.  I might subject my podcast viewers to that too at some point.  I feel like I should explain.  I have a strong history with music.  In college, I actually got into the University of Wisconsin: Eau Claire school of music, which is actually a very good music school.   The Jazz band has won many a Grammy.  While majoring in music wasn't for me, I did enjoy the subject enough to complete the music theory classes.  In that time we had to do some singing in class, and I was surrounded by women with these beautiful Soprano and Alto voices.  I've always wanted to sound like that...to sing like that.  Instead I would sing along with the class and feel embarassed that my voice didn't really fit in either the male or female categories.  I felt kind of awkward.

So that's where my vocal discomfort came from.  It's taken me a number of years, but now, while that jealousy is still there in some form, I am comfortable with the way I sound.  I have a unique voice that people have often complimented me on.  It's just another aspect of myself that I'm proud of.

The joys of cooking have continued for me.  This Saturday I made myself a lovely dish.  It was chicken coated in Italian breadcrumbs, baked in olive oil to a nice crisp, browned exterior.  The inside was moist and delicious.  I had sugar snap peas and broccoli as the vegetables.  I also had some long grain rice to complete the meal.  My dessert was a package of fresh strawberries.  What a fantastic meal.

Tonight was not as fantastic.  I was going to make spaghetti, which I don't make often.  I bought some sauce on Friday when I went grocery shopping.  One of the jars was on clearance. It was Barilla Roasted Garlic pasta sauce.  I love garlic.  So naturally I thought it would be great.  It wasn't.  In fact it was terrible.  I was shoving the sauce out of the way to try to just eat the noodles.  Now I know why it was on clearance.  Let's hope the recipe I have for homemade mac and cheese turns out better.

I don't know why I didn't mention this earlier, but I had a meeting with Chris and another one of my good friends, Erika, about starting a non-profit and what it would take.  I have amazing friends.  They want to help and were guiding me in the right direction.  I think the most amazing thing was that throughout the whole meeting, the term in use was "we".  It's as if there was no question that they would be directly involved in the cause.  I can't believe sometimes how awesome my friends are.  I've been asking around to some friends who are close to both me and this cause about being on the board when we get going, and they've been all for it.  I'm excited to see where this door leads.

On that note, it's time to head to dreamy land.  It's an early night for me...just past 11:00, but I need the rest.  With all the sleeping in over the weekend, I didn't sleep much last night.  Thanks for sticking with my blog post until the bitter end.  Haha...g'night all.