Posted on September 23rd 2004, 3:17 pm
I am still sick...I'm not happy about that. I went to the doctor Monday and found out I have a sinus infection as well as mild bronchitis. Gotta love that. More blowing my nose and coughing for me. I got this cool prescription for Zithromax, which I've never taken before. It's an antibiotic that I only have to take for 5 days. There were six pills total. That's cool. Otherwise I'd be taking amoxycillin for two weeks. So, I should be feeling better by Saturday. I can't wait.
This past week was full, as usual. Every night I got home around 9:00 pm and finally got to eat dinner. Every night I didn't get enough sleep either. That probably didn't help with me being sick, but I had no choice. I had to read my text books and do my dilation sometime. So yeah, it hasn't been that great so far. It'll be better at least when I'm not sick and not getting enough sleep. Then I only have one problem.
It's been very hard to keep up with my readings in my classes. I've been focusing on gender studies, and even with that one class, I'm still behind. I found out yesterday that I'm not the only one. My classmates are having trouble keeping up too. I'm doing what I can, but I have limited time. Plus, I can't let my other classes suffer because I am focusing on just one.
Money is very very low right now.My first paycheck wont cover rent by a lot. I've had a lot of expenses, like the $30 for the antibiotics, that we not expected. Money sucks. I'm struggling to just get by as far as food goes. I'm going to have to ask mom and dad for money again, which really sucks because they don't have the money either. I am so frustrated too, because I can't get any need based financial aid. All I can get are student loans, which I've already maxxed out. Hopefully some day money wont be an issue anymore.
Last week had some interesting moments. Monday I let things get to me. It had been over a week since Jill talked to me last, and I was still trying to forget about it. As usual, I think too much, and eventually let the whole situation sink in again. I was trying to be strong and not care that she disappeared this time. In truth, I just wanted to think that way. I was hurt still. I cried. I needed to. Thankfully, it wasn't that bad. It just needed to come out. It's amazing how things work out, but right when I needed it, Kevin IMed me. He wanted to get out of the house for a while. Even though I had homework to do, I decided to go. We just went to Perkins to get some food and talk. It was pouring outside, which didn't bother me at all. It was just what I needed.
Thursday night was an LGBT ice cream social as well as a town meeting about the state and federal marriage amendments. Both of the events went very well. I found out that despite my not wanting to be an exec board member of the LGBT, they made me the official web person without asking me. That's ok I guess. I update the site and do the mailing list stuff anyway. There were a LOT of women at the ice cream social. That was very encouraging. We had a good time. The town meeting was more of a forum. They had several people talk about personal experiences and why the marraige amendment needed to be stopped. People from HRC were there too. It was very informative. I'm just worried that we were preaching to the choir. Either way, I made some good contacts.
This past Friday, despite being sick, I went to Scooters, the gay bar. Several friends went, and we had a good time. I didn't dance with anyone, mainly because there wasn't really anyone to dance with. There were a few women there, but it was mostly guys. Rachel and I were enjoying watching this one straight girl dancing. She was pretty hot. I got a ton of compliments that night, mainly from the drag queens. Erin was like "See?!! You should come out more often." Maybe I will.
Saturday night was movie night. Chris and I went out on a "date" to see "Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow". It was a great movie. Visually it was stunning. The acting was great, and so was the script. It was just a fun movie to sit and watch. It was like watching a comic book. I give it a four out of five brownies. (That's my rating system). Go see it.
Sunday we had the TV station's retreat. It's something we do every semester. This time we cooked out and had some fun outdoors. I played frisbee with Kevin and ran around for the first time since SRS. I'd have to say the best part was the meeting though. I had the new kids in the production department take a look at some of the things I did last year to get ideas for this year. I also got them to sign up to actually do some production work. So, things are getting going. They seemed so attentive and enthusiastic. I think they're going to really love it. It's going to be a good year.
Monday I was surprised to randomly get IMed by an old friend from years ago. I hadn't talked to Jordana for at least a year, probably longer. She was doing quite well from what it sounded like. It was great to have a normal conversation with her. When we talked 3 years ago, she was going through rough times, and I was there to help her as much as I could. We got close, but she lived so far away that I had to let go. She didn't take that well and was very difficult to talk to after. Everytime we talked it would immediately turn to her jumping down my throat about why I had to break it off. Then later it switched to why I had to be trans. After the time apart, she seems to have matured. I really enjoyed talking to her, and I hope things continue that way.
My Wednesdays are the longest days ever. I start at 9:00 am and don't end until at the very least 9:00 pm. Last night was 10:30 pm. Then I got to make dinner. It's no wonder I've been sick. I am never getting enough sleep. I skipped two classes yesterday to make sure I was getting enough sleep. Otherwise I'll never kick this infection. I can tell I'm on the mend though. That's a very good thing. I didn't bring a box of kleenex with me today. That's a first since sometime last week. Two more days...I think by Saturday I should be in good shape. OK, I let this entry get way too long. I will end this here. Have a great day everyone.