Posted on December 9th 2003, 5:26 am
So this past week was....interesting to say the least. Elections were held Tuesday night for the LGBT on campus. I was elected Vice President of the group. So now I have a ton of responsibility. I don't mind so much. I know I can handle it, but still, it's a bit intimidating. I'm glad I didn't get president though. That would have been too much. At least I have my experienced, good friend Chris as president to work with. That will make it a good time.
Wednesday was LGBT panels in the psych 100 classes. So, I got to do two of them, but they ran all day. For the most part, they all went really well. We got a lot of good questions, and the response was mostly positive. The only real negative one I experienced was in the last five minutes of the second panel I did. This one boy had a disgusted look on his face after we all had told our stories and answered questions. He asked us "So do you actually believethat what you're doing is moral?" Then, SNAP, we all went into defense mode. It was obvious that this boy wasn't listening to what we had to say throughout the panel, because he would have had is answer already if he had. His mind was so closed off. We weren't going to get through to him. However, we still defended ourselves and at least had an impact on the other fifty people in the room. We actually had several people come up and thank us for coming. That was impressive. I didn't expect them to do that. It didn't bother me that this person had their own opinion, it was the fact that the comment was so accusatory and so negative. It wasn't even a question really. It was more of just an insult. We had many people throughout the day question us about religion, but none were as harsh as this one person. Needless to say, most of us were upset about it. It bothered me throughout the rest of the day.
So, I don't know if I've mentioned it before, but I've been kinda been getting to know this girl, Leslie, in the group. Over the past few weeks, we've been getting a little closer. Well this past week, we got very close. We saw each other everyday from Tuesday to Friday for some reason or another. We did a lot of things in groups and watched a lot of movies. It was fun. We cuddled a lot, which is something I missed quite a bit. I really have no idea what's going to happen between us though. It really seems that we are uncomfortable with each other. I'm not really sure exactly why yet, but I think I know why I am. I have certain things about my current body that make me very self conscious. Considering she's a lesbian, I wouldn't be surprised if she's uncomfortable with it too. I'm not really sure if I'm really ready to date just yet. We'll see. I'm in no hurry. Time to go. Class in five minutes. Bye.