Posted on November 21st 2003, 7:19 am
This week has just been kicking my ass. I write this now, at 12:36 am when I should be getting to bed because it's the first opportunity I've had to write anything. I had tests this week, I had work, and I had preparing to do for tomorrow. Speaking of which, tomorrow is the first day of the women's leadership conference that I am speaking at. I'm hoping it'll be fun. I'm not sure if I'm really prepared for it, but I think I'll do ok.
So, I felt bad about my sentiments towards Chris, the boy I spoke of in my last entry. So, I decided to talk to him more. I figure, even though he annoyed me last Friday, that doesn't mean I should completely blow the guy off for good. I know if I chat with him more, I may even be able to help him with the issues even he knows he has. I spent a good deal of time talking with him a couple nights ago, and I think I helped. Time will tell there.
This conference has me thinking a lot. There are going to be a lot of women at this event. The question is, am I really ready to try to start looking for a relationship again? Do I want to seek out someone? Am I emotionally ready for that? I'm not sure if I am yet. I definitely still have body image issues to clear up. I dunno, maybe another year of being single and dealing with hair removal and surgery and such. Then maybe I will be comfortable enough with myself and my body. Then maybe I might be ok with a relationship. Then again, maybe a relationship is just what I need right now. We'll see what happens in the next few days. I hope at least I make some new friends. Well, I better get going. I got some stuff still to do before I get some sleep. G'night all.