I can easily say that so far, this new year / decade has not started well.  Hopefully it's not like the whole "woke up on the wrong side of the bed" scenario.  It started with me getting sick with a head cold right on New Years Day.  How wonderful...

I hate being sick.  It doesn't happen often, but for some reason I've been sick twice in the past 6 months.  This one was worse than the last.   It didn't seem that way at first, but after five days of blowing my nose raw it was pretty obvious.  Then suddenly I stopped getting better, and the awesomeness coming out of my nose turned neon yellow.  So on Saturday, I went to Urgent Care to get my sinus infection diagnosed.

While I was there, the doctor informed me that my left ear had wax buildup.  That's the same ear that had blockage problems last year.  So, on Sunday, I decided to try the ear wax removal drops I have and see what happens.  I figured I could take care of it.  Instead, the drops got stuck in my ear.  I couldn't get them out.  I tried just about everything from a q-tip to jumping up and down to a blow drier to sleeping on my ear to let it drain out.  Nothing worked.  So all night and all day I had a blocked left ear that was kind of annoying.

So that meant today I got to go back to the doctor.  How fun!  This time they flushed my ear and got the offending wax out.  Finally the water drained!  My god what a relief.  I was then informed that I had an ear infection to go along with my sinus infection.  That's wonderful.  I don't know if I've ever had an ear infection before.

What I found odd...my doc told me that most people complain of a big ear ache along with an ear infection like mine.  I didn't really notice.  It was a little uncomfortable and the whole being deaf in one ear was annoying.  Otherwise, I guess I never noticed.  Makes me wonder how high my pain tolerance is.  I know I don't get headaches often and I only keep tylenol in my cabinet because someone might need it at some point.  I must be weird...

So yeah, things are getting better.   I should be finally breathing easy again by the end of this week.  I'm sick of blowing my nose, and I'm sure my roommates and coworkers are sick of hearing it.  I'm excited though...today was the first time in a while that I've felt truly hungry.  So I made myself a big dinner, and it was fantastic!

Let's see...let's go backward.  New Years Eve was fun.  Chris and I went to our friend's Sarah and Kit's house.  It was a great time.  We played Pit and enjoyed everyone's company.  There was good food and a lot of laughs.

Christmas isn't what it once was for my family.  We didn't do the gifts thing this year.  No one could really afford it.  So it was really just food and family.  Don't get me wrong, that's great.  It's just doesn't feel like it did when I was a kid.  Plus, we do everything on Christmas Eve now since my siblings have families.  I'm really the only one staying over at my parents' house now.  I miss that feeling of wonder and excitement of childhood Christmases.  All things change I guess.

I did end up spending money on myself though.  I bought an electric blanket.  My parents had one on my bed when I was at home, and I just loved it.  I haven't regretted buying it at all so far.  In fact, I'm sitting under it right now.

My family went to see Avatar, which...awesome! If you haven't, go see it, and go see it in digital 3D.  I have already gone to see it twice.  I may see it a third time before it leaves theaters.  Such a cool film.

I can't forget to mention this.  Right after Christmas, a great friend of both mine and Chris came to visit all the way from San Francisco, California.  Her name is Lisa.  She went to college with both Chris and I, and she's the coolest hippie I know.  We spent the Monday night after Christmas hanging out, catching up, sharing good food, and loving every minute of it.  She is a friend I hope I stay in contact with for the rest of my life.  We have such a great connection.

Lisa, Chris, and I are such kindred spirits.  There are so few people that I can talk so deeply with about things that are so personal and sacred.  I trust them with anything.  Lisa, Chris, and I talked about something that I've felt for a long time.  It's this feeling...no...longing to go home.  By home, I mean back to where our souls come from.  This world is so mundane, so harsh, so hurtful...yet we're here...trapped in these fleshy shells with such limited perceptions of time and space.  I know a big part of me yearns to be released from my entrapment, but I know I still have things I have yet to do here.  I may not know what those things are, but...I just know.  Both Chris and Lisa share that feeling, and it's nice to know that I'm not alone in feeling what I feel.  I think that is a wonderful thing to share.  I am so grateful to know both of them.

Let's see...since I haven't written since Thanksgiving really, none of my readers know of the crap I had to deal with in December.  The big one was that my car's fuel pump finally died.  All of my plans for a new laptop went out the window.  I had to put my moneys toward a shiny new pump to make my car run again.  $700 dollars later and I got just that.  My car has been running beautifully ever since.

Out of that fiasco and disappointment, I did some thinking and really decided that I really did need a new laptop.  I finally decided to sell my iMac.  I figured it was the only way to get the laptop that I really needed.  So I went about doing that and success!  I was able to sell it.  I realized also that I had some software licenses on it that were also worth money that I could sell separately.  I ended up coming out quite well in the deal.  I got myself a shiny new fiery red Sony Vaio laptop with some nice fixins on the inside.  It's been serving me well for a couple weeks new, and I am quite happy with it.  That was really my Christmas gift to myself.

So, that means...I can actually do some of the things I've been holding off on.  Unfortunately due to my getting sick for so long, I've had no energy to do any of it over the duration of my time with this laptop.  So, as this week progresses, I'm guessing more will get done.  I'm feeling my energy come back with each day.  I've been doing theming research for drupal.  So genderverse should be set within a week.   Mark my words!

I have another major post I plan on writing in the next couple days too.  I have had something on my mind that I feel I really need to share.  So stay tuned for that.  In the meantime...I'm sore from my terrible night's sleep last night.  I'm still recovering from my infections, and I'm tired.  So...yes I know it's only 10:30pm, but I'm going to bed.  Sweet dreams all!

Question of the blog: Do you ever feel like I feel about this world and experience?