Before I begin...I just have to say that I had so much on my mind today that I wanted to blog about. Since I didn't have time, I wrote little reminder phrases down to remember what to write about later. Yes...I know, I'm a dork.

Today something drew me to look at the signs of the Zodiac.  I got curious about my compatibility with Jenn and looked.  I'm an Aquarian and she's a Cancer.  Turns out we're only neutral when it comes to compatibility.  Chris is a Libra, and he's one of the best matches.  So I guess that has something to do with why we are such good friends.  I know the zodiac signs don't mean much to a lot of people.  My coworker Mike told me to take that stuff with a grain of salt, but that being said, I still think there's at least something to it.

For example, I looked on Wikipedia's page for Aquarians to see what typical Aquarian traits are.  Click the link if you want to see them.  I basically went down the list going "Check...check...check...yup that's me." That includes "strong willed / subborn / obstinate" and "opinionated / conceited".  Those are the most negative traits to me at the moment, but seriously...all the traits fit me exactly.  Even broadcast is in the list of ideal careers.

So that got me thinking...maybe Jenn is right.  Maybe I do need someone that can match me.  Maybe this is just who I am.  Maybe I can't be changed or shouldn't be changed. Maybe we weren't the best match as a couple.  I have friends that told me that they were aware of my opinionated nature and that I talk about myself a lot.  But I also have friends that never noticed.  So maybe she's right.

I also found a webcomic thanks to my friend Adam.  It's xkcd and it's awesome.  One of those comics made me think. The comic makes the statement "I think you just like having a girlfriend. It doesn't matter who."  I know I wanted to be in this relationship and that I was complacent in it.  I have been in relationships in the past in which I wasn't attracted to the person so much as the idea of the relationship.  I don't think that was true in this case.  Jenn and I had a real connection and I do love her.  I do think that towards the end, when I was clinging to the relationship, a little part of me wanting the security of the relationship was there.  Mostly I just wanted her though.

I was thinking about some of the ways Jenn and I didn't connect too. One of those was my nerd level.  I'm like at a nerd level 8 or 9 on a scale from 1 to 5.  I didn't feel comfortable breaking out the Teen Titans DVDs or bringing out Lunch Money the card game.  I really felt comfortable taking my nerd level only up to a 4 really.  I think if there's one thing I'll be looking for in a future mate, it will be nerdiness.

So with that, here's my ideal woman:

• Geek
• Nerd
• Passionate
• Intelligent
• Gamer
• Driven
• Compassionate
• Deep
• Beautiful
• Abstract
• Opinionated
• Dreamer
• Feminine
• Sexy
• Sense of Style
• Cheesy sense of humor
• Outgoing

That's a lot to look for, but I'm sure she's out there. For once, maybe she'll be a brunette.  I don't know why, but I always seem to date blondes or sandy blondes.

Unrelated to my healing process, I still haven't gotten any news on the job.  I did, however, get news on some freelance.  A regular client of mine has a bunch of video for me to edit by the end of the month.  That will be a great revenue stream for me.  I'm going to pay off a bunch of bills in January thanks to the income. One of my goals is to put money away for the Red Scarlet.  It's a pricey camera, but it has so many possibilities.  If I don't hear anything on the job soon, I'll be calling / writing an e-mail.  I'll post more news on this later.

Now on to dream land.