Posted on December 31st 2008, 5:35 am
Here's a little story from my past. When I was in the midst of my transition and seeing a therapist regularly, I talked about my sexuality in a session. The issue was brought up because I was pretty much just dealing with figuring out my gender and wasn't touching my sexuality. He asked me if I wanted to experiment and figure out my sexuality too. I told him no. I just wanted to focus on my gender identity and worry about my sexuality later.
As it turns out, that worked well for me. I am very comfortable in my own skin now, and I'm quite happy with my gender identity. I just haven't spent much time with my sexuality. There are a few things I know. I know I'm attracted to femininity. I know what body type is physically attractive to me, and I know what personalities mesh with me. Up until recently, I didn't know what I was truly attracted to sexually.
I've learned a lot from recent relationships. I've pretty much realized that unless the genetic woman is something very special, I think I'm more interested in dating transwomen. I've recently been talking to some trans friends of mine and have been connecting a lot better. I guess I can't say for certain yet, but it seems that way right now. I'm sure I'll find out.
One of the things that I think is important to me is self actualization. I think it's important to be with someone who's settled in to their identity and are comfortable with themselves. I remember going through my stages before self actualizing, and I was all over the place. I wasn't ready for love. So yeah...that's important.
Anyway, I'm freezing. Chris' apartment is like 64 degrees. I'm going to go find a blanket. Happy Early New Year!