...the final threshold. Our days of make believe are at an end. Past all thought of if or when, no use resisting. Abandon thought and let the dream descend.

So with that, Chris has now seen my budget. He has reluctantly agreed that bankruptcy is really my best option. He even said it was a reluctance because he just doesn't like bankruptcy period. This morning I even got a call asking if I could schedule my $500 minimum to bring my account up to date. I thought that was funny. So not it is just a matter of when.

Anyway, enough of that talk now. I have the solution to the problem and no sense dwelling on it more. Today we got a foot of snow. Thursday we were told it might be a snow day at work, and I got a call today to let me know not to come in. I was also told that if the roads got better, we'd be expected to come in for the afternoon. Otherwise, they weren't sure if it'd be a sick day or vacation day, but if I came in, it'd be considered neither. So I made an effort to come in. I slept in first, then ate and showered. It took me an hour to shovel the snow drift that was behind my car. It was scary driving in to work, and when I got there, there was a grand total of 8 people there. My e-mail said that we didn't need to come in unless we had something pressing, which I didn't. So yeah, I was pretty upset to find out that I actually didn't have to come in at all. I felt manipulated by my boss. So I only stayed two hours and went back home. What a waste.

Last night I got invited to participate in a group video chat on tokbox. I had never used it before. My friend Tracy is all up on these social apps like Twitter and shit. So, I figured why not. It was interesting. Tracy and I talked about some of the things she's involved in that are really cool. She does things like web414, barcamp, and queer camp. They're all networking events that bring people from many fields together to work on random projects. I've been thinking about getting involved for a while, but now I'm seeing the benefits because of my lack of motivation lately. I think it might be a great chance for me to get some projects started that I've been meaning to for a long time.

Queer Camp will especially be exciting because it could help me get the TransLife organization going. I've just got so much to do that it's daunting and I don't know where to begin. I need to find someone in several fields that would be willing to help. I need a person that's good with money, a marketing person, a philanthropist, and a bunch of multimedia people. So hopefully I'll get connected with some peoples and we'll move forward.

I finally got some more freelance work this weekend too. I'll be working on it as much as I can this weekend. I probably will be focused on it this Sunday since Saturday is an all day bake-a-thon with my sister and mother. We're doing the family's traditional Christmas tree spritz cookies along with a few others. It should be fun.

My expenses today totaled 37 dollars to pay my electric bill. That's it. I'll be doing more bill payments this weekend. I know its exciting, but if you want to monitor my choices, I'll post them here. I figure if anyone can tell me I'm making a stupid choice, it's my faithful readers. I'll update my budget and will write more tomorrow.