I had a realization at the end of my work day today.  My numbness, my crying, my lack of motivation, trouble getting to sleep lately, trouble waking up...all symptoms of depression.  It's the first time in a long time I've had to face it.  My life so quickly spiraled downhill that I don't think I had much time to react.  I think I emotionally crawled into a cave, and I'm still trying to figure out whether I want to come back out.  I'm not sure what to do to move forward as it all seems to cost money.  I feel so stuck.  I feel so sad.