Tomorrow I leave for the hospital. It should be interesting. Here is my schedule for the week:

Monday Aug 2: Leave for hospital around 1:00 in the afternoon. Get there around 3:00. 3:30 is the pre-surgical consultation. After that I'll probably relax for a little while. Later that night I get to go through bowel prep....not so excited about that.

Tuesday Aug 3: 7:30 am surgery begins. I should be out of the OR by noon. After that...it's pain and recovery.

Wednesday Aug 4 through Tuesday Aug 10: Relax and recover in the hospital. I wont be allowed out of my bed for the majority of that time. I probably wont be able to even roll on my side. On the 10th I'm discharged.

Wednesday Aug 11 and Thursday Aug 12: Staying at the Holiday Inn near the hospital. After that I head to my parents house.

Friday Aug 13 through Aug 31: Recover at parents house

I think it'll go well. I'm not really all that scared. I'm just nervous and excited. I can't believe this is really happening. I dreamed about this at five years old. It's truly a dream come true. Today I went shopping with my mom for some loose fitting clothing to wear during my few days after the surgery is done. It's going to be a painful time, so they want light, loose fitting stuff to wear. I'm sure I'll be leaking, so these clothes are getting their only use this week.

The "Bye Bye Penis" party didn't quite happen as planned. I got a lot of "I'm not sure if I can make it" e-mails. I invited a ton of people, but the day just didn't work out for a ton of my friends. One was in Italy, another got stuck out of state forced to move out of his apartment, another friend was closing on her house in Illinois, most of my friends from school just couldn't get time away from work to drive the three and a half hours to my parents house, etc. I had a few people come and it was still fun. I know without a doubt that the "Hello Kitty" party will be a heck of a lot more fun though. Everyone in my college town wants to come. The friends who couldn't make it due to conflicts told me they will be there. I think there will be a packed house for it.

I have some good ideas for the party too. We want to make paper mache pussy lips to put around the door frame that people enter through. Also, we could hang a camel toe for people to kiss under ;). We could play pin the cooter on the transsexual. I'm sure there's a ton more ideas that can be had with this party too. My friend Annie wants to help me make them. She's an art major and also a lesbian. We went to high school together. She was very excited when I suggested the paper mache labia. It was so cool seeing her, since I haven't in many years. She brought me two dozen roses! I still am a bit surprised at that. They are very pretty. I loved her line she said before she left the party..."It was great to see you now that you've gotten all hot and stuff." I blushed. It was cute. She may visit me in the hospital. That should be cool.

I've learned that when I'm worried or nervous, I dream of storms. For the past three nights there have been thunderstorms and tornadoes in my dreams. I've been waking up a lot and can't sleep very long. It's worth the frustration though. Today I distracted myself by helping my father cut the grass. We had a great dinner too. I figure I can eat how I want tonight since it's all coming out tomorrow anyway. I hope I can sleep tonight.

I haven't heard from Jill since I got home. She may or may not visit. It's ok if she doesn't. I understand her reasons. I hope she knows I'm totally ok with just being friends with her. I sent her an e-mail of my time in the hospital and numbers to find out what room I'm in. I tried to be clear that I'm not pressuring her into anything. I didn't hear back...so, we'll see what happens.

Well, it's really hot in my parents house. I want to go outside and cool off. Everyone please wish me luck on the surgery. I'll write again after I get home on the 11th. Bye everyone.

Luv,

Jess