Today marks the beginning I'm actually making a difference in this world. I finally came through with one of my goals. Hopefully I can start spreading the word about my website and people will really start to learn who I am, and what I've gone through. I'm very proud of myself for doing this, and I have high hopes that it will catch on. I'm sick of getting made fun of, getting called gay, getting stared at, and having nothing to do about it. I suppose I still have to get the information up that people are going to need to read. So there's still a long way to go, but I'm getting there. I'm really looking forward to when it's not just me bearing my whole life on the internet, too.

So, I guess I should introduce myself. My name is Jessica, and I'm a 21 year old college student. I've lived my whole life transgendered, though there was a long period of time when I wouldn't let myself believe it. I currently major in music, but that wont be for much longer. I am planning on changing that in the next couple weeks. I am very open about being transgendered, though I don't broadcast it. I do wear some makeup and nail polish regularly. People notice, and when they ask me, I'm honest with them. They always say honesty is the best policy. So far that has proven true for me. No one, aside from my parents, has responded negatively to me. I do my best not to throw it in people's faces. I don't want people to think I do this for attention. In some ways I do want attention, but that's simply to show to people that transgender does exist in the world. I don't care if the attention is specifically directed at me.

I have been diagnosed with Gender Identity Disorder, and have been seeing therapy for it for a while now. I am at a very important turning point in my life as I am faced with the decision of being male or female. I could start hormone replacement therapy within this month. I am leaning very strongly in that direction, but it is obviously a major decision. I don't want to rush anything. This coming weekend, I am planning on going home to visit my parents. There I will have to tell them my current situation and plans. I am not looking forward to that. It's very hard on them, and I wish I didn't have to put them through it. But, I have to tell them. I will write about what happens this weekend after I get back. So, until then, thanks for visiting.